DOSE:	1 hit	sublingual	LSD	(blotter / tab)
	joints/cigs	smoked	Cannabis
	1-2 glass	oral	Alcohol
		oral	Ginger

BODY WEIGHT:

88 lb

Sorry I don't have fluent English. and I dont know where to start, but I'll try. My last trip on acid, it was different. It happen on December 31 2016. Before that time I'm already traveling around in my country full 1 month, I already tripping with acid blotter maybe 7-10 times, and my journey end up in my friend city 2 day before New Year's Eve. So I planned to took 1 Ltab in his house.

I already know my friend (A) like 2 years and (A) in my eyes is a vet in substance stuff, his family too. He is the person who introduced me to acid, and I know some friends (who are his friends also) and I already have 3 times acid trip in their place/ city. I already planned this trip a month long before that I must have an acid trip at nite before New Year's Eve and maybe interesting to see some fireworks, music, etc. In my thought it was a nice plan. I spend my New Year's Eve trippin'.

I sat in A room with 5 friends enjoying music, and some playing football gambling with their phone. All my friends in this city are kinda geeky with digital stuff like online gaming, online gambling via phone, and some is drinking. And at 9 pm, I ask my friends that they will also put some Ltab to company me or no. But all of them don't want to do it. They just want to be a sitter only when I'm trippin'. So well then there are 5 people to sit with me while I'm trippin.

At 9.30 pm, I put 1 Ltab inside my mouth and think maybe it will reach the peak at 00:00 am. After 1 hours inside my mouth I already feel tingling body load in my body, slightly visual distortion etc, and my friend (A) (the owner house) ask to move out to the backyard to enjoy music and waiting the firework (all 4 friends agree and move but continuing online football gambling) so we move to the backyard.

In his backyard, I feel more overwhelmed because it's more open space. But I don't know why that night I don't see a single star at all. It's just black in the sky. I sat on the chair in front the big circle table and my other friends grab their chairs also, so it's like circling. (A) put 1 laptop in there and playing acid jazz music. He decide he is music dj when sitter me trippin so the music that play is from him. He continues his football gambling and decides to roll a joint. I think it's nice idea to smoke weed and wait the acid to reach its peak.

At 11:00 pm The visual from the acid is getting strong and now I see some couple bats getting flying and their body seems glowing because reflection from the small fireworks (not main event fireworks) I remember asking to my friends what is colorful glowing orb in the sky (I'm kinda not sure its my visual or real) and they said it's a bat.

Skip after, around 11.30 pm (A) decide to put astrix music because he said it's gonna be great when I'm reach the peak. I get lil bit freaked out hearing the sound from astrix, since before I'm not really enjoy that kind of music. (too intense but I like sphongle tho). At 12:00 the acid feel so strong and I guess reach its peak. I can see some fractal with my eyes open when I see the sky. I feel like some 4 or 5 dimension fractal with the center of it is a triangle/ arrow, and the tip of it fractal feels like touch in center of my head, so when I move my head the tip is like following and like I'm is the center point. I feel like blessed, fell overwhelmed by the universe, but I don't speak anything to my friends since they just enjoying their own gadgets. So I'm just enjoying my trip, hearing mind exhausting astrix music. Being honest that time, I don't feel comfortable, with visual that intense. I can't rest my back cause the chair don't have backstand, it just simple circle chair, and the bats glowing, screeching afraid because fireworks exploding is everywhere.

I feel so tired in my brain, sometimes I close my eyes, enjoy the visual, and open it again. I try to see what my friends doing. And they still sat in their chairs, busy with their football game, but sometimes one of them see me and smile devilish or ask, 'its great huh, are you enjoy it?', and I see them sometimes looking each other and grin after asking me, until I feel very not comfortable with it. And one friend B keep asking me, if I want more alcohol to drink. And it's happen more often. Until I decide to drink it 1 - 2 glass. On one moment, I feel not comfort and decide to climb his roof stairs and want see firework from there. My friend seems to panic seeing me doing that. I don't feel nothing wrong with that. I still can handle my body and visual right, only my mind silghtly different. I sit in his roof watching firework and try to erase my negative feeling, but (A) seems to chase me. He decides to have a look at fireworks from the roof too. When he is on roof with me, he talks to me 'its beautiful right?' I said 'yes it is' and after that he said to me that he wants to pee. He peeing on his roof, I talk to him 'why you piss on there?' He said 'its okay this is my house') and from that time I have negative thought that my friends actually hate me, that I'm not treating their home well, because every time I go to his house, I always do trippin.

I feel so insecure and decide to go to his room again leaving all my friends in the backyard and sleep in there. When I enter his room I feel more refresh, no music. I can rest my back and it's bright. I try enjoying, check couple posts with my laptop and lying down. I close my eyes, enjoy peacefulness silent. But not long after that, all of my friends in the backyard decide to following me too, going to (A) room.

And I hear that astrix music again, I ask to (A), can he change the song, not that intense. I request more joyful song like trip hop, and (A) play it. I feel so grateful, I can enjoy my trip right now and decide to close my eyes and go with the flow. After some song, and I'm already gone away. My friend (A) put on mind exhausted music again but this time is more slow but have like an chant or some devil whisper. At that moment I'm feel the evil present in that room. I try to close my eyes to enjoy it but I can't. At this moment I don't know I'm actually close my eyes or not.

However, I can feel a fire like hell beneath me. And when I hear my friend talking I can feel the evil already whisper each other, how to sacrifice me, it's like so real. I can see how it looks like. Their tail, their horn, and my 4 friends (except A) is kinda shapeshifting like an evil girl or some. I feel their hand want to reach my soul, my core soul.

It happens so intense that I feel like I'm going die and dragged to hell. I have a thought that actually there is no time, time is just an illusion in this world. Even if we are already in futuristic era like this, we are still same like the very beginning of history human in this world. It still happen same like what religion say, all of it is still all about the sacred battle between good and bad, God & evil, yin & yang. I must be friend with the devil because I lived in this world, we already do evilish thing on this earth, no one can go to heaven before getting through hell first right now. We all in this world already have a sin.

On that moment I'm fighting so hard to safe my soul, until I shout 'In the name of God, God almighty' (Allahu Akbar) so loud and I jump then running to corner of that room with my hand try to warn my friend don't go near me. I see their face is shapeshifting to lizard evil like, and (A) is very look like an devil. I can see his tail, I can see he is the leader in that room. All my friends in that room getting panic. They jumped, and they all grab me, I fight them, I punch all of them, I'm in fight or flight mode, ready do anything to save my live. But I don't know, I still have rational thinking that I will not kill them all in that house, I just wanna run. After several punches, I lose it, (A) overlap me in face, I feel my jaw getting moved. They all grab me and put me in the bed. They grab my hand and my leg, so I can't move. And in my thought, this is it, I can do anything. They grabbed me so tight, I'm surrender. I try to let them finish it already, 'Go on kill me, make it fast' I shout. I'm in bed and close my eyes. I let it, what all bad in my thought, happen.

But not. I'm just feel blessed again. This act happen 2 - 4 times, so when my friends think I am already sleeping, I will jump and shout 'In the name of God, God almighty' again, my thought getting loop, and (A) parents wake up, because I shout so loud. But this time I feel like so guilty, I apologize to them, so sorry and I'm start crying, saying sorry that I make a bad act in their house.

Still on that looping nightmare. And maybe around 2:00am. (A) parents feels bad with me, so his mom make me an hot ginger. I drink it and feel relaxing, but when I close my eyes that nighmare about hell fire and evil shit still comeback. I'm getting use to it because I'm already surrender of it. So I don't jump and run. I'm just delirious and said 'God Almighty' till my body and mind so tired. And that nightmare gone completely at around 4:00am, and when I open my eyes, I'm already at backyard again sleeping in dirt and see (A) dad is searching rope to tie my hand and feet. 'I am already wake up' I said to them, that's okay don't need to tie me. I feel so grateful, and I ask them to back to (A) room cause I need real sleep.

The day after I still have an nightmare about the devilish figure when I see my friends, and still can't believe what happen last night. But I feel so grateful too that if it real, I'm knowing what is happening right now in this life. I learned how the world works. You can say I'm lunatic, but it's what I will believe. It's based on my experience.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110854
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 27
Published: May 28, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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