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Mental Reboot
Mushrooms - P. cubensis
by psilociner
Citation:   psilociner. "Mental Reboot: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis (exp97606)". Erowid.org. Oct 1, 2022. erowid.org/exp/97606

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
8 g oral Mushrooms - P. cubensis (dried)
  T+ 12:00 Couple bowls smoked Cannabis (flowers)

BODY WEIGHT: 155 lb


Some Background: I'd like to share a very powerful trip I experienced off eight gs of some homegrown cubes. Previous to this experience I had tripped several times on mushrooms all having the purpose to build up to this experience. 1st time was 0.5 grams, second was 1.5 grams, third was 2.5 grams, fourth and fifth were an 1/8th ounce, and the 6th was 5 grams (at night quite a intense experience the only time I had a 'bad' trip). Also, I didn't know this at the time but this batch of mushrooms were more potent than most. I came to this conclusion after a few more grows and sampling other people's shroomies.

Mindset: I would be lying to you if I said I wasn't nervous. Anybody who is about to trip 8 grams are probably going to be nervous, at least that is what I told myself. I was ready though, ready to meet the soul of my body, ready to talk to entities, and ready to shatter my ego.

Trip Setting: A mild, sunny, and slightly windy Sunday morning. That day when I woke up I knew that this was the day.

THE TRIP:
At 7:30am I consumed all eight grams in a matter of minutes on an empty stomach. I simply chewed them up and washed them down with Sprite. I awaited the effects in my room with Pink Floyd accompanying me. After about 20 minutes my friend called inviting me to play some soccer at the local YMCA fields. What a perfect way to get my mind off of things while I'm coming up! I told him what I had just done and he replied simply with 'holy shit, bro'. He arrived at my house in a matter of minutes and drove me to the fields which were only a few mins from my house.

At the field there were about 4 people waiting to play, 1 of them a varsity soccer player and the other 3 pretty decent, leaving me the only one with just about 0 skill so I decided to play goalie.

This is where things got interesting.

At about T+0:30 I was already tripping at about level 2 or 3. Strangely my soccer skill was also rapidly increasing. I blocked every single ball that was shot in my goal! My vision was wavy, the trees and ground were breathing, and when the ball was kicked at me I experienced super slow-motion that allowed me to block waaaaay better than my sober self could ever do. This quickly ended though after about T+0:50.

I could hardly even stand by that time, I was tripping hard. Breathing crystalline vision in fact. My friend helped me to his car and drove me home, his sub-woofers putting me into a crazy trance. When I arrived at my house I stumbled to the door, went in and plopped on my couch.

This was definitely a level 5 trip now and I knew there was more to come.

I was approaching the climax (or so I thought) of my trip.

I then ventured into my subconscious mind. It was then when my ego died. I felt it break as I looked at my self and my soul with what I believe was my third eye. My world was a swirl of colors, landscapes, and thoughts. I noticed that I was thinking about everybody I ever knew and what I can only explain as reading their intentions in this life time. Some were very dark and evil, yet some were incredibly comforting and loving. Then I focused on my own intentions. Instantly my visions became a landscape of a beautiful forest and my consciousness was soaring above almost at light speed. I floated down slowly like a leaf in the wind to a river where I saw who I truly was and what I truly wanted.
Then I focused on my own intentions. Instantly my visions became a landscape of a beautiful forest and my consciousness was soaring above almost at light speed. I floated down slowly like a leaf in the wind to a river where I saw who I truly was and what I truly wanted.
I wanted to change the world, but I saw that it was not in my power to do so. I could only change myself.

When I trip the high usually comes in waves, but this time it was exceptionally powerful, and at right then in the trip I came down from the first wave.

I opened my eyes seeing intense visuals of a world in a colorful earthquake. I attempted to stand up only to get intense vertigo and fall on the floor. My mind was racing and I looked at the clock. Holy shit, I thought or said out loud but at this point they were the same thing. The time was 9:40 am making this about T+2:40.

I couldn't believe how high I still was and started getting that 'Will I ever come down?' feeling. Still on the ground, I started tripping out again and the opened eyed visuals where so intense I had to close my eyes. Once I closed my eyes my brain was overloaded with sensory information. I could not tell the difference between any senses they were all one. My heartbeat seemed to stop and I knew that the next wave was coming.

Suddenly my being was formless. I was 'seeing' other creatures running around in my head. Demons, angels, elves, spirits, seemingly every non human entity I was communicating with now. They told me things about the next spiritual plane, how death was not a barrier but a doorway to a new realm. 'I want to die then, kill me,' I said to them. After I communicated that they seemed to turn malevolent and started ripping into my mind, taking my human self and tearing me away from it. This was a truly terrifying moment in the trip and I realized I didn't want to die, that I had barely experienced the 3 dimensional plane that we all live in.

Then I was gone. Not in the 'real' world or this higher dimension that I just was connected to. It was a void of anything, even colors.

I'm still not sure what happened but I think that it was just all too much for my brain to handle so it shut down. During this void which seemed like eternity, I was talking to an entity that was unlike the others. Somehow I knew that this was what god really was. It didn't seem to be a separate creature like the others too. I knew that it was part of me, and this was the human potential, the god that is inside all of us. I tried to speak to it, but it was me. All the answers are already here in the locked potential of the human psyche.

It was then I opened my eyes a second time. I did nothing for a while and just stared at the shifting, breathing, color changing ceiling until I was significantly less high and was able to stand up. I looked at my watch and it was 3:35 PM making it about T+6:35.

I was still tripping like I was on about an eighth and it was more than six hours since I ate the shrooms. I couldn't comprehend what had just happened to me and it scared me that I was still tripping this hard when I should be almost all the way down.

I put on some Grateful Dead to lighten the mood and relax me. It always does the trick and it helped me piece together my mind. For a couple hours I just listened to music and tried to relax while very slowly coming down.

My friend (the same guy from earlier) called me then to invite me to have dinner with him and his family. This was at about 6:00 PM (T+9:0) and I was still mildly tripping. I almost couldn't handle it because I felt that everyone was staring at me and I was having memories of earlier that day, but I managed and he took me home at around 7:30 PM (T+10:30). I was exhausted and tried to go to sleep but I wasn't able to relax because I was still tripping. In order to fall asleep I had to smoke a couple bowls of ganja and even then I was still feeling the effects of the mushrooms. I fell asleep still tripping at around 8 PM making this an 11 hour or longer trip. A lot longer than mushroom trips should be!

The next few days I had a wonderful afterglow and I had post trip visuals randomly for a couple months.

Summery: The mushroom raped my senses and blew my ego out of the water, but that seemed mild compared to the entity contact and the never-ending void. This peak of this trip was like tripping on DMT for 5 hours and was more intense than I assumed mushrooms could be. I used to think it was more mild than LSD but this was something I could never achieve with LSD alone! I can't say it was a good or bad trip, it was simply too intense. This trip was the trip to end all trips for me, yet I still go shrooming every once in while :grin:

If you have any questions please reply!

Peace and I love this website!

Exp Year: 2012ExpID: 97606
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 17 
Published: Oct 1, 2022Views: 567
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