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Productive but Not Enjoyable
by Anonymous
Citation:   Anonymous. "Productive but Not Enjoyable: An Experience with Methylphenidate (exp90744)". Erowid.org. May 6, 2020. erowid.org/exp/90744

10 mg oral Pharms - Methylphenidate  
  5 mg insufflated Pharms - Methylphenidate (ground / crushed)


I was diagnosed with attention deficit disorder at sixteen, and prescribed methylphenidate straight away.

I was always disruptive at school, though not badly behaved, just lack of concentration, interrupting and talking in class. Initially I took it during lessons but soon found it boring and stopped taking it as I was more interested in what I was studying anyway.

From then I only took it when studying or writing essays, and found I could do a lot more work in a shorter amount of time. Studying for my last school exams I took quite a lot and did better than I had done before. Usually I would take two 5mg tablets of Equasym orally and snort a third, my dose was low and I assumed it was pretty much safe. Never really had any noticeable adverse affects other than increased stress after studying, but as this was usually only several hours before an exam or deadline put it down to general anxiety about school stuff. Plus when I finished an exam or handed something in my mood lifted anyway.

During my first two years at university I smoked a lot of weed, and usually had a joint after finishing work, which pretty much stopped any negative effects, though when I didn't smoke (always right before a deadline or exam) I would still get worried. Changed doctors at this point and was prescribed Medikinet. Don't really take other drugs other than drinking, smoking and occasionally mdma.

I occasionally took it recreationally, snorting some before going out or when I was high or wanted to concentrate on something, but never in large doses.

Stopped smoking weed at the end of my second year, and am currently writing my final essays and revising for exams. For my submissions before christmas I had forgotten to get a prescription (for a controlled substance the doctor has never said anything about the fact that I'm supposed to take it all the time, but have only picked up 8 prescriptions of 60 5mg tablets over three years...) so didn't take any.

Recently have been taking it on a daily basis, almost always two orally and one snorted, sometimes snort some more towards the end of the effect to pick it up. Have recently stopped seeing the girl I had been, which had been playing on my mind a bit, but I noticed that after the effects had peaked I became pretty depressed. I have no other history of mental health issues and am usually pretty positive and upbeat, but I initially put this down to the fact that I was missing the girl I had been seeing. Took me a while to recognize that I would wake up fine, take the methylphenidate, work for most of the afternoon and then about 6 o clock every day become withdrawn and depressed.
Took me a while to recognize that I would wake up fine, take the methylphenidate, work for most of the afternoon and then about 6 o clock every day become withdrawn and depressed.
This lasts for about 2-3 hours and is pretty unbearable, but then I pretty much snap out of it. I still have loads of work to do but have stopped taking the methylphenidate, am far less productive but a lot less depressed. With the context of work and everyone staying in most of the time anyway being on my own exacerbated the symptoms and have realised that I should be much more sparing with my use, even at low doses.

I rarely get intense comedowns from mdma and have a pretty low tolerance (1/4 gram is more than enough for a whole night), but recognized the symptoms methylphenidate was giving me straight away. Apart from the obvious bad feelings, the fact that the comedown was a result of an afternoon spent working, not a night out having fun made it even worse. More recently experienced cravings for more during the comedown, but extending it just makes it worse, and as it makes me more awake I can't just sleep it off.

Exp Year: 2007-2011ExpID: 90744
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 20 
Published: May 6, 2020Views: 831
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