DOSE:	repeated	smoked	Cannabis
		oral	Cannabis	(edible / food)
	40 g	oral	Mushrooms	(freebase)

BODY WEIGHT:

66 kg

above all, I want to inform you that I am an Asian and I had no experience of dope before this event, and I had no information about drugs but just some names.

I traveled Amsterdam with my friend, and we planned to experience all the things that we can enjoy in Amsterdam. Surely, it included doing drugs. After arriving and unpacking at youth hostel, we went out for a dinner. When we came back to hostel, there was a Canadian traveler, and he wanted to join us, so we went to coffee shop together. At the coffee shop, we bought weeds something weak named 'widow', and smoked it together. After few minutes, my friend and Canadian guy felt well-being and relaxation and so on, but I felt nothing! I was too normal. So disappointed, I bought stronger one named 'bubble gum' and I smoked tho joint in a row, but I felt nothing but just laziness. I was so angry and suggested them to move another coffee shop. I wanted to try another drug, and I bought 'space cake' at the other shop. Actually, when I was ordering the cake, I was laughing for no reason. It means weeds worked, but it was not enough for me. I expected too much. After taking cake, we came back to the hostel. My friend laughed so much and looked so funny after smoking just one joint, but I was pretty normal. I crowded him to go out again for another drug, we came out just after 15 minutes.

This time, I took mushrooms. They were four fresh tall mushrooms and I took them all fast with a cup of cola, and I felt! I felt nice feeling while I was scared about totally new strange feelings.

We came back to hostel, and we laughed a lot on the street on our way back. There were 4 strange guys in our room, and I lay down on my second-floored bed. After closing my eyes, I saw the most colorful, beautiful, pleasant and funny scenes I had ever had. I could listen exciting, pleasant, fast musics. I could not but just concentrate on them perfectly. I could see animal racing, there were thousand of colorful animals and they really tried hard to win the game. The Canadian guy made some joke about me, but I couldn't answer about that. I was so high about 20 minutes. But, that's it. Horrible nightmare was waiting for me.

While I was looking hallucination, suddenly a huge fear came to me with invisible hand behind me from under the bed. I opened my eyes and I was so terrified, I felt there was somebody under the bed. The bed was rocking slowly and I was so afraid and I couldn't say any word, couldn't move. Another guys didn't know that I start having a bad trip, they just talked to each other and sometimes mentioned about me. When my friend tried to lay down just below my bed, I shrilled him 'Go away!' with horrified face. They knew I had a bad trip after my shouting. The fear was about 10 times stronger than ones I had ever experienced. I felt like my body was going to be a rock, my blood was absorbed by my bed, but I couldn't get out of my bed. I heard and saw hallucinations that they flouted me a lot, it was horrible. My spirit went out of my body for a while and came back and astonished about what I did. I saw I acted like a gay, nut on a wall, twisted my beddings. And the most horrible thing was the time. Time was almost stopped. I heard many sounds and I thought so much and I felt like it took about 1 hour but just 15 seconds left!! Oh my god. 'I'm confined in a fucking timeless jail', I thought.

I was jitter, afraid, and angry. There was no hope. I closed my eyes and I saw real hell. Tons of devils and skeletons celebrated that I fall to the hell and it was horrible. I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't. Funny thing is they are all in cartoon and they were also colorful. In the strong pain, I saw flashing Jesus with bible (he was also cartoon), I asked him help me, but he left and pain again.

---- I cut the story because it is too long. I saw just many hallucinations. ----

First day, I suffered from hallucinations and bad thoughts from me, and I couldn't sleep. Each moment I tried to sleep, the bed was shaking, and my heart beating is going to be stopped. At that moment, I can control my heart beating rate, and I could stop my heart beating. (I don't know if it is true or not, but I really felt it.) From next morning, paranoid began. I thought there were some people watching me everywhere. I thought that there were many cameras in the room, toilet, aisle, everywhere. I thought that everyone in Amsterdam knew that I was a dope. I distrusted everyone, even my friend. (( My friend still says there was no helper or monitor. However I saw one stranger in our room who asserted he was a original member of the room, but after my appalling fear about him, he had gone and real roommate came back. I had no hallucination at that time.)) Anyway, because of mixing drugs, my symptom was like one after taking heroine. No sleep for 3 days and just slept 6 hours for 5 days. I ate nothing for 2 days and I ate 2 oranges, 1 apple, 1 cookie for 4 days. Endless paranoid. I doubt almost everyone and I found some real cops on this process. There were so many events but this essay is going too long, so I'm gonna just sum up.

Hallucinations, horror, phobia, sadness, anger, feeling death. almost no sleep, no eating for 5 days. feel like there is some another being in my body and he tried to kill me. paranoid. schizophrenia. etc..

I finally could get a sleep by sleep on my stomach and compromised with the being under the bed. I thought that it was a ghost. I'm still afraid of bed, so I just removed my bed and sleep on the mattress. I saw a real hell and now I realize that a few facts. This real life is heaven and health condition is pretty important. I'm not gonna complaint about my life anymore. This life cannot be worse than my hell trip. The bad trip was so harsh for me, but I got precious realizations. I'm happy now.

(pardon my poor english)

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 75308
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 27, 2021	Views: 53
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