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A Beautiful Lie
Hydrocodone
by Anonymous
Citation:   Anonymous. "A Beautiful Lie: An Experience with Hydrocodone (exp72487)". Erowid.org. Nov 23, 2015. erowid.org/exp/72487

 
DOSE:
  repeated   Hydrocodone (pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT: 160 lb


My recreational use of hydrocodone began my first semester of my junior year in high school when a friend obtained 2 bottles of 30 hydrocodone/APAP 7.5mg/500mg. I had previously experimented with pharmaceuticals, but none of which were opiates. Since he didn't use any substances recreationally, he gave the bottles to me for free.

I had a good head on my shoulders when it came to avoiding addiction, and I wouldn't allow myself to use it more than twice a week. I took 1 or 2 tablets before school about once a week until the high just got old, so I quickly upped my dosing, which led to my addiction. At first, I would take 3 or 4 tablets once a week, but I began to fall in love with the euphoric feeling and quickly started craving it. Eventually, I escalated to 3 in the morning, 3 at lunch time, and 3 after school. I was constantly high, and no one knew it. That is, until 4 at a time wasn't cutting it. I had to take 6 at once to get the same feeling that 2 once gave me. This led to some extremely difficult situations. I was too sedated at times to be at school, and found myself running out of my physics class to vomit a few times.

Once the two bottles ran out, since I had no connections to any opiates, I went through severe withdraws. After withdrawals for a few days, I was still very psychologically addicted to the drug.
After withdrawals for a few days, I was still very psychologically addicted to the drug.
I was constantly irritable because I didn't have the love of my life running through my veins. I soon pulled myself very deep into the drug game, and had a handful of people I could call to get my hydrocodone. Down here, it costs $2 a pop for a 5mg, $3 a pop for a 7.5mg, or $4 a pop for a 10mg, but I could usually get a decent discount if I bought in bulk.

Soon, I found myself without any money, and without any drugs. This led to me going to parties just about every night and stealing out of peoples medicine cabinets. While doing this I came across alprazolam, propoxyphene, amphetamine, carisoprodol, clonazepam, codeine, cyclobenzaprine, tramadol, meperidine, and surprisingly often, hydrocodone. The stealing has been going on ever since, and I now find myself a senior in high school.

I get cravings for the drug every day of my life. I recently had a bad encounter with my left hand getting burned, and was prescribed 10 7.5mg/350mg Norcos. I have to take 7 or 8 at the same time with some hydroxyzine to get a somewhat decent high, but I haven't felt as euphoric as it used to make me since I was physically addicted. I am constantly chasing the high I used to get, but it's too far out of my grasp.
I am constantly chasing the high I used to get, but it's too far out of my grasp.
I don't know why I don't feel like I used to, because my tolerance has dropped drastically. I've tried insufflating 5 or 6 pills at one time and I still don't get the high that I used to get.

Hydrocodone has led me to trying other harder opiates. I've used Oxycontin, morphine, Percocet, and the less abusable Demerol. The only thing that has come close to making me feel so incredible is 25mg of oxycodone. I would even take hydrocodone over morphine. To me, my experience with codeine was rather amusing. 60mg felt like taking tramadol.

But my point is, if you are looking to experiment with hydrocodone, make sure you have a lot of self control. Don't let the drug take over your life for 2 years as it did mine. I can't even imagine what will happen to me in college. I can see myself still trying to achieve the nearly orgasmic state that I used to obtain and leading myself down a terrible road to heroin addiction to do so. Opiates and opioids are some of the most abusable drugs out there, and they're not joking at all when they say they're very addictive. If you have an addictive personality, I would strongly advise you to stick with another category of drugs.

Stay safe.
Peace & Love.

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 72487
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 18 
Published: Nov 23, 2015Views: 1,979
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