DOSE: T+ 0:00	160 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 1:15		vaporized	Cannabis - High THC
T+ 2:00	50 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 4:00	60 mg	oral	Pharms - Sildenafil
T+ 0:00		oral	Pharmaceuticals	(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

184 lb

MDMA for Active Seniors... and a recipe!

I am hoping with this experience report to give readers an intimate view of my MDMA experience. I am a 71 year old retired healthcare provider who has been faithfully married for the past 50 years. I am going to relate how my partner and I enjoy MDMA together. We have been taking MDMA on a fairly regular (once every month or two – sometimes more often for me) for the past 2 1/2 years , with fabulous improvements in our lives – a better mood, more joy, more love, and of course more ecstasy. While we never tried MDMA in our youth, we both did LSD and a number of other psychedelics as young hippies. We pretty much gave them all up during our working years. Now that we are retired, and with the help of a dear friend with “connections”, we have added them back into our lives in a careful and hopefully wise manner. So far so good!

Our “rolls” together and separately, have become wonderful, transformative, and erotic experiences that I just wanted to share with everyone, but especially for “seniors” who like us have managed to maintain their health enough to safely enjoy them.

I am going to emphasize a technique I have developed to take advantage of one aspect of eroticism and pleasure that gets short shrift – my skin. Not only the skin on my genitals – an obvious target – but the skin covering my entire body.

Our last roll together was pretty typical, and yet once again reached a peak of joy and erotic pleasure that made me feel I have a duty to report it somewhere – humans need to be aware of this capacity for pleasure and the techniques for achieving it. We spent 4 hours in the presence of the angels (well, not _too_ much in their presence, as we were doing a lot of naughty stuff).

I will convey it in a way reminiscent of and honoring my friends Sasha Shulgin and more particularly, Ann, in their co-authored book PIHKAL. Dot and I had the tremendous pleasure of meeting them many years ago, in the early ‘90s, after I read PIHKAL and we were able to pay a visit to Sasha’s little farm/ranch near Orinda California, Here's to you, dear Ann and Sasha!

On to the trip report!

After a light breakfast at about 6 am, I made up a fresh solution of MDMA from 1 gram of powder. I had obtained the powder from a very trusted source and tested it with the DanceSafe chemicals. I weighed it out on a digital scale I obtained for $15 from Amazon. I then dropped the 1 gram of powder into a small 500 ml beaker and added 100 mls of hot water - not boiling hot, but hot enough to aid in dissolving the powder. This gives a solution consisting of 10 mg/ml MDMA – easy to measure out precisely.

I then dispensed this into small glasses via 10 ml oral syringes obtained from the pharmacy. Dot (135 lbs) wanted 140 mg (14 ml) with a 40 mg (4 ml) booster, I (186 lbs) was going to have a 160 mg with a 50 mg boost. It is important to us to always carefully measure out both doses and have them clearly labeled before proceeding. No measuring while stoned!! I added 100 – 200 ml of soda water to allow me to more easily drink it – it is very bitter.

I will note that 160 mg is a pretty big dose, I typically do 140 – 150mg, and 100 to 120 mg is recommended, but was looking for a bit of an added edge.

11 am - we both took our first doses – me the 160 mg MDMA and Dot the 140mg MDMA, and retired to our corners – we have a lovely home of 40 years, and she goes upstairs to her studio while I go to my office. As is typical, we agree to meet in the bedroom at about 1 pm for cuddling and sex – and ecstasy.

11:45 am, T+45 minutes

I am starting to come on. I usually feel it as a sort of band around my forehead, and odd body tingling. I need to explain that my office is also my personal sex “den” – although I hope that is not at all obvious to anyone but my partner and I.

It is a fairly large (20x20’) room with a lovely big window that overlooks a park. I have it all set up with a nice rug and multiple screens – a big TV for entertainment and several on my desk for my computer that I can convert to my nefarious erotic and ecstatic purposes! Then a couple of laundry baskets for towels – large beach towels (to cover the rug and chairs – you will find out why) and lots of hand towels and a lockable closet where I keep two hot towel warmers that keep our lubricants and sex toys warm. The warmers cost about $140 each, but for the pleasure they provide for these sessions, they are well worth it. And if anyone asks about the towels (no one ever has) they are for my daily yoga exercises!

Lubricants Are Key – Be Prepared!

Before we go on, I want to add a section here about lubricants. In this experience I am going to talk about the joy and ecstasy that I have found in massaging the skin – both mine and my partner’s. Obviously, this can only be experienced with adequate lubrication, so I feel the discussion germane. Feel free to skip ahead to the next timed entry if you are not interested.

We used to use water-based lubricants, but about 6 years ago, we stumbled upon coconut oil (know, I know – how naïve were we!), then moved to MCT oil (less scent, Dot hates the scent of coconut oil), and now we have finally arrived at what we think are the best: petroleum-based oils and “creams”.

Water-based lubricants are fine for the young ones who have to worry about them destroying their latex condoms, etc. – but they dry out the skin and leave a mess. The petroleum-based lubricants we now use (recipe to follow to make your own) not only are good for our skin, but also good for the wood desk and leather furniture! Any spills are simply wiped up or used to polish the floor or furniture. To paraphrase the old SNL skit, they are a sex aid and a floor polish!

I put together this recipe after first reading a book a like-minded (and aged) MDMA-using friend gave me - ESO: How You and Your Lover Can Give Each Other Hours of *Extended Sexual Orgasm, by Alan P. Brauer MD and Donna Brauer. To fully appreciate this experience, and to obtain the exquisite and long-lasting pleasure I (and the authors) describe, I cannot recommend the book highly enough. At 71, I thought I knew how to give myself pleasure, but this book gave me wonderful inspiration and lots of useful tips.

In the book the authors describe the importance of good lubrication. They recommend a product that can be obtained at the drugstore (it is touted as a makeup remover), but note that a far less expensive version can be made very easily in your kitchen.

ESO Lubricant recipe:

10 parts mineral oil
2 parts paraffin
1 parts petrolatum

Before beginning, remember that these ingredients are flammable – be careful and heat them up only in a water bath. Put each ingredient into various sized glass bowls or measuring cups and place them into a shallow pan on the stove filled with just enough water to make them start to float. Heat the water to simmer – if it begins to boil, it is too hot. Patience! It takes a while to melt the paraffin, even if you chop it into smaller blocks, which I recommend to speed up the process.

Paraffin comes in 16 oz blocks. As long as you maintain the proportions (you can replace the “parts” with ounces or milliliters, you can up- or down-size the recipe to fit. All three ingredients are easily purchased online.

Once all three ingredients are melted and approximately the same temperature, pour them all together and stir thoroughly. Now comes the fun part – pouring the hot mixture into various little plastic bowls with lids. I use plastic because the last thing you want in the middle of an ecstatic moment is broken glass.

In addition to the plastic bowls, I have purchased some $6 silicone soap molds, and I pour about ½ to ¼ of the mixture into those (more on the use of these “bars” of lubricant to come!). Then everything is placed in the refrigerator to cool. The oil cools to a wonderful butter- or Crisco®-like consistency. You can modify the recipe above to suit your pleasure – for example, I increase the proportion of petrolatum to make it feel “thicker” (more viscous) when warmed to about 100˚F.

Too much petrolatum makes it too “gooey” and sticky. Too much paraffin makes it clumpy, too much mineral oil makes it too thin. Play with the combinations, you may find, like I do, that having two versions is best: a harder version (for bars) containing more paraffin, and a softer gooier version with more petrolatum for melting and sticking your body parts into it (you’ll see).

I keep these bowls and bars up in my closet – in the summer I keep the bars in the fridge.

Another point to make about enjoying your skin – hair gets in the way. I am not that hairy, but I found that shaving all of the hair (other than above the neck) on my body allows my hands to just glide everywhere, and I look younger without all of that gray pubic hair! If you don’t want to shave, trimming your pubic and chest hair will work almost as well.

Ok, now that we are prepared to lubricate - back to our story!

12:00, T+1 hr
I have begun to peak. I feel completely wonderful. I love to make audible sighs (vocalize), and here I am, sitting in my chair, listening to music videos on my large screen, and enjoying my own breathing. I keep a glass of soda water around and drink as needed to make sure I am well hydrated.

I took my blood pressure, 186/107, heart rate is 98. My non-stoned baseline is usually about 120/80 (I take 25 mg chlorthalidone and 10 mg ramipril daily to manage my mild hypertension ). I don’t find this temporary increase to be problematic – as long as I don’t have any symptoms, such as sudden pains in my head or my chest. I am pretty athletic, I just finished a sprint triathlon last August, so I don’t worry too much. I have never experienced any ectopy (funny heart beats) on MDMA, and didn’t this time either.

12:15, T+1:15
I began vaping THC via a vape pen. Like Terence McKenna, I always enjoy THC along with my psychedelics. I use THC pretty much daily, never via smoking, usually either a vape pen or on special occasions, capsules. To give an example using capsules, a nice dose for me is 30 mg.

The THC really starts the process of focusing on my body, and in particular, my skin. One of the first and best things MDMA taught me was how much pleasure I could obtain from just rubbing my skin! I was aware of the importance of skin contact from working with neonates- studies have found that it is vitally important to their growth and well-being to massage them as they are laying in their bassinets. So now here is this 71-year old baby massaging his own.

THC always “awakens” my sensuality, and doubly (triply?) so when I am on MDMA. I am now naked, sitting in a towel-covered chair, and I begin the process of completely covering myself with my oil recipe.

I take one of my “bars” of lubricant and begin applying it to my chest, arms, armpits, legs, butt – everywhere! And then at some point I “commit” to the oil – I take the bar and rub it all over my face. By commit, I mean giving myself over completely to the sensations the oil brings. On MDMA, this feels amazing – like jumping into a cool pool.

I then move over to the towels placed on the rugs, and continue to rub myself with my recipe. It is odorless and (at least to me) pretty much tasteless – but the sensations are simply beyond description. I used up one whole bar (about 4 oz) to cover me.

Of course in the process of rubbing my whole body, I spend a considerable amount of time on my erogenous zones - penis, scrotum, perineum, and anus. I have completely evacuated my bowels and washed them out via a bidet, so I have no fear of “issues”.

Ecstasy. It gives me shivers just describing it. I won’t go into more detail, I think you get the idea – here I am, completely covered in oil and shining like that Samoan guy who came out covered in coconut oil at the Olympics a while back. Every orifice, every part of my skin (that I can reach!), every spot on my body is super slick and my arms get so much exercise just rubbing and massaging.

Imagine me, on my knees on one of my towels, leaning back and rubbing my whole body while emitting long slow sighs. That is ecstasy to me!

One of my reasons for writing about this experience of the joy of my skin is that I hope it can add to the methods used to introduce people to MDMA and to psychedelics in general. I am not bound to any preconceived idea of “therapeutics” – this is pure recreational use on my part!

I hear about how people love to take MDMA and dance – and I’m sure that is wonderful, I do a lot of dancing while rolling – but it is the sensual and erotic aspects of MDMA that I enjoy. Given the cautions about doing it too much and losing the ability to fully enjoy it, I am hesitant to give up one of my sessions to a “public” use – a concert or whatever, because I am sure I would have great difficulty in keeping my hands off of myself!

13:00, T + 2 hours – time for a boost! I take my additional 50 mg (5 ml of the solution) of MDMA, Dot 40 mg.

Sighing with pleasure, covered in oil, I (carefully!) go downstairs to the bedroom to meet up with my “date”. Dot has been doing her own thing, which is more mind- than body-oriented like mine – she doesn’t get preoccupied with the overwhelming sensual desires that MDMA brings to me. She does enjoy MDMA at concerts and so on.

In the bedroom, we have previously pulled back the covers on our California-king sized bed and placed more beach towels to cover everything. The recipe doesn’t stain, but it obviously leaves oil marks and by using the towels, we can just wash them at the end of our session.

We lay down together and the cuddling begins. I take a fresh bar of our oil recipe and we begin the process of getting her covered just as I am. She has taken off her jewelry and glasses, and tied her hair back. At some point, I ask “are you ready?” and I gently and lovingly apply it to her face.

At this point, we are like two slippery seals rolling on the beach! Dot loves this part as much as I do, and we use our hands, mouths, and faces to cover each other. So much bliss, so many sighs of pure pleasure, so much exploration – “how does that feel? Can you rub here?” I am entranced by the beauty of this woman who has been my lover for over 50 years. Under my hands (and hers), her skin transforms from wrinkles to smooth shiny expanses of coral pink and nutty brown.

Here is another addition to the technique. We will carefully warm one of the bowls of oil, turning it from Crisco-like to liquid. I put it in a larger bowl with a tea towel in there in case it spills. I tell Dot to treat it like it is radioactive, what a mess it makes if spilled! We then take turns dipping body parts – penis, breasts – into it and when they come out, they have a “candy coating”!

The sensation, while rolling on MDMA, of dipping your penis into a bowl of the oil, pulling it out with a thick coating, and then slowly massaging rubbing it in – all I can say is it is amazing. And even more so – the vision of Dot’s beautiful boobs with this translucent candy coating makes me swoon. If you are careful and have made your recipe right (more petrolatum!) there should be no dripping.

Our lovemaking session lasted about 2 hours. In my mind, THIS is what MDMA is all about in terms of couples therapy. I cannot begin to convey the love and bliss that is transmitted between us via every part of our bodies – sliding, slipping, kissing, transformed us from two separate humans into one ecstatic organism.

15:00, T+4 hours – add 60 mg sildenafil (Viagra®)

Dot is exhausted and ready to relax – but I’m still going! By agreement, I don’t take any sildenafil during these sessions until we are nearly done, so we can focus on the pleasure of it without the “pushiness” of penetration and orgasm. We have been licking and sucking and stroking, but I can’t really produce much of an erection and even if I did, past experience has shown I would have trouble having an orgasm.

So at this point I take 60 mg of sildenafil and head back up to my own pleasure palace, Dot to hers. It has been long enough since my booster that within 20 minutes, I am able to get and maintain a lovely erection!

Upstairs, I resume my activities – fresh oil, rubbing, etc. but now with a goal of orgasm. I start up some erotica on my screens, and soon I am lost completely in pleasure and true ecstasy.

16:30, T+ 5 ½ hours

I never achieved an orgasm, despite 3 – 4 close calls which leave me panting and vocalizing and falling back in pleasure. I no longer find the inability to achieve an orgasm in a session a problem – after reading ESO (the book referenced above) I have learned to enjoy the whole experience of sexual pleasure without worrying about orgasms. I have learned to just give an ending time to my self-stimulation (otherwise I think I would just continue to do it until oblivion sets in!), and 16:30 was it.

17:00, T+6 hours
Dot and I head out the door for a magnificent 2 mile walk through the park. Another wonderful MDMA session for these two lovers.

End notes

I have read a lot about MDMA, ketamine, psylocybin, etc. being used in therapeutic environments – and I think that is wonderful. In this experience, I hope here I have shown how a couple uses it recreationally as a tool to achieve an ecstatic life.

Exp Year: 2023	ExpID: 117055
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 71
Published: Dec 3, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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