DOSE: T+ 0:00	25 ug	oral	Diphenhydramine	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:30	1 cig.	smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes
T+ 1:05	354 mg	oral	DXM	(liquid)
T+ 2:21	150 mg	oral	DXM	(liquid)
T+ 2:30	96 mg	oral	DXM	(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

135 lb

After much deliberation I decided upon 600mg~ as opposed to a stronger dose of 700mg. I have not eaten in 14 hours, which will most likely intensify things, and I would rather be safe than sorry. I do feel some apprehension and indecision, as part of me would like to just eat some food, watch TV and post pone taking the DXM, but I prefer dosing earlier than later. I find it nicer to be relatively sober before I fall asleep. It's often important to establish a purpose for consuming drugs, as opposed to just boredom, which I have gone over in my head. There is music, food, water, a phone and my bed nearby, with a very low risk of being disturbed by another person. A report I read mentioned focusing on music as a way to stay grounded, which I hope to keep in mind. I have also never written a 'trip report' before, so please pardon any errors.

3:45PM - I just took 25mg of diphenhdyramine in an attempt to prevent or reduce upcoming nausea. I was considering taking 50mg but even that low of a dose can cause a change in headspace for me and it's not a pleasant one. There are a lot of different approaches I found as to how one can combat nausea but none have worked for me so far, which is why I am taking it on an empty stomach with the help of diphenhydramine.

4:15 - I had a cigarette to pass the time and combat some of the drowsiness of the DPH. Hopefully it doesn't interfere with its efficacy in treating nausea. I don't know how anyone takes Benadryl for allergies, it is very sedating.

4:25 - Beginning to take the first bottle of syrup. Rather unpleasant, as expected. Taking about 90mg every 5-6 minutes, with a little nibble on a snack to help with the lingering taste.

4:50 - Finished the first bottle (354mg). Going to wait a bit (30 minutes) to start the second bottle because I've heard it's a good idea to separate two doses. This may come to back to haunt me, I don't know, but there's a risk in everything.

5:00 - I do feel a bit melancholy, unfortunately. I miss the people who are no longer in my life. Music sounds very nice and I feel very social. Occasionally I feel a little chilly, often in my legs.

5:05 - I can tell my roommate has his door open which makes me a little anxious to go out to the bathroom. I do feel a bit of nausea.

5:10 - I played a song on guitar. The buzz of the strings felt pleasant but at the cost of making me feel a little nauseous. My head feels light and I feel as if I am inside myself, a difficult feeling to describe. As if I have two bodies and one is trapped inside the other.

5:15 - I decided to stop playing guitar as the vibrations were a bit much on my stomach. The spacey feeling and lightheaded sensation has intensified. I feel strange and lazy.

5:25 - I tried brushing my bangs out of the way and ended up poking my forehead. Some difficulties in typing as it has certainly begun to take effect. I don't feel very coordinated, trying to not move frequently. I don't know who said to take one bottle an hour after the first. It is nearly impossible to drink this disgusting syrup while high.

5:30 - Struggling to consume any of the second bottle. Very nauseous and it is difficult to focus my vision. Taking a moment to tell myself 'good luck' in the upcoming hours. A strong mind is a healthy mind. If only my stomach were as easily convinced.

5:36 - I somehow managed to consume 150mg from the second bottle, putting me at 500mg.

5:45 - I did it. Not sure how I but I finally got to about 600mg. I feel horrible and never want to taste that syrup again, glad it's over.

The rest is pulled from notes I typed into my phone.

5:55 - Very heavy head

6:30 - Lots of CEVs that are in sync with music. Walking to the bathroom was a challenge. A wave of coldness washes over me. I feel like my body is slipping away and I am anesthetized. It feels like it's been forever but it's been 10 minutes since I last looked at the clock.

7:30 - The walls of my room keep changing color which I instantly attributed to a sun goddess. I was convinced she was painting my room different colors to amuse me. (I imagine this stemmed from reading about other's experiences with higher powers, nonetheless it is a common phenomena on DXM.) It also felt like I was about to slip out of my body but I stopped it out of fear.

8:30- I picture myself in my head and am immediately disgusted. My mouth feels numb and tight, and the memories of people that I've lost seem so far away, like they were never in my life from the start. It feels like I don't know or remember who anybody is. I remember the horrible things a specific person has done to me in the past, but I can't understand why I can't let go of them and move on with my life, because right now I feel nothing for them. Their name means nothing, and I feel free from the hold they always have on me. Music still going, my head feels like it's about to explode. My vision is so hard to control.

9:30 - I text lots of people trying to make as much sense as I can but I am still definitely intoxicated. My texts are mostly focused on past negative interactions. I guess I'm trying to get closure on a lot of things because my feelings seem very 'soft' right now. I enjoy working through problems on DXM.

10:00 - I feel a bit more stable. I still see things when I close my eyes, like static, people, shapes, etc. It is hard to walk, type, and think. My vision makes me think I'm four feet tall and doors are gigantic.

10:30 - Getting a shower was interesting. I kept wondering why the water wasn't hitting my hair but then I realized that I just wasn't feeling it. The anesthetic properties of DXM came through strong.

11:00 - Very hard to eat because it feels like my mouth was injected with novacaine. Vision is very wonky.

11:30 - Pretty much the same. Effects are fading a bit.

12:07AM - Nearly sober, had a cigarette. Still a little disoriented. Listened to a really sad song, which was a mistake, but I feel stable.

It was an interesting day. Lots of time and visual distortion, a really interesting experience with memories and the way I feel connected to people. It really helped me improve my mind set regarding my OCD and it felt great to feel no symptoms of it for several hours, though I do not plan on using this frequently to self-medicate. I shied away from 'leaving my body' because I just was not ready to do so, the change in thinking was powerful enough for me. The nausea was annoying and towards the end I would have preferred to just be sober. It certainly satisfied my curiosity regarding the higher plateaux. I think in the future I'll stick to 1st and 2nd, at least for awhile. All in all, a 6.5/10 experience.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 113568
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: May 9, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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