DOSE:	22 seeds	sublingual	H.B. Woodrose	(seeds)
	8 seeds	oral	H.B. Woodrose	(seeds)

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
So a couple months ago I took 30 (relatively weak) hbwr seeds. Maybe equivelent to 6 strong seeds. I took the majority sublingualy although I took maybe 8 orally. The experience didn't really hit me until 3 hours after the first sublingual dose. The usual euphoria set in, Pupils dilated heavily. The experience was fairly normal until I started getting heavy vasoconstriction in my legs. Of course this is normal but for some reason I got worried, Which progressed into shortness of breath which I processed as the drug somehow closing up my throat (it tightened due to stress/anxiety).

At this point I was terribly afraid. I thought I was going to die. It was 5 more hours of freaking out( I'm embarrassed to say that I actually inhailed a earbud in this time and I was convinced it was stuck in my throat) I tried chugging milk to make my self vomit to dislodge the earbud. Of course none of this worked. I tried sleeping but it was impossible. I was also convinced if I fell asleep I would die in my sleep. I felt like I was suffocating. I finally fell asleep after about my 5th time laying down. I woke up in the morning and felt relatively normal. So happy that I had survived the experience, I got hid with waves of anxiety that day. I got the flu shortly after. I noticed I was short of breath sometimes and very anxious. I also got bronchitis after having the flu which did not help. I thought I had some time of respritory problem which was affecting my anxiety levels. When in reality it was the other way around.

I did some searching and I figured out the panic attack I had that night caused a severe reaction in my brain and now I have DPDR (Depersonilization/Derealization) Which is caused by trauma and or panic attacks. Basically its a constant feeling of disconection from my body. Also coupled with waves of panic attacks and depression. I had noticed that ever since that night I felt very weird. Almost like I was dreaming. And thats exactly what it feels like, dreaming. Its not a fun thing to have. Trust me as much as it sounds awesome to be always mildly tripping, its not. It has some visual effects such as floaters. But they arent really common as they are with HPPD. Its a absolute mental hell. Its generally caused by weed induced panic attacks. Anyways I don't blame the drug in any way. I would not be surprised if I was the first one to get this disorder from LSA in perticular. Anyways I just wanted to share my story. Its been absolute hell thankfully I have a doctors apointment and I hope to get benzos/anti depressants. Something to help me. I am ceasing all substance use for the time being.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110386
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: May 5, 2020	Views: 48
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