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They Had Lives
Changa (Smoked MAOI & DMT) & Various
by Showhill
Citation:   Showhill. "They Had Lives: An Experience with Changa (Smoked MAOI & DMT) & Various (exp109523)". Erowid.org. Nov 23, 2017. erowid.org/exp/109523

 
DOSE:
  sublingual LSD  
  600 mg oral DXM  
    insufflated Ketamine (powder / crystals)
  25 mg insufflated 2C-B (powder / crystals)
    smoked Cannabis  
    oral Cannabis (cookie / food)
  2 bowls smoked Changa (plant material)

BODY WEIGHT: 160 lb


Sorry for how long this is, I feel like writing any less could not do this experience justice.

Well, it doesn’t feel like anything, but at the same time, I feel everything. This is just my experience so your milage may vary. I have done DMT 5 times, all of which I was on another psychedelic drug at the time, this time I was on a cocktail of disso's and psychedelics, I was on around 330ug of LSD, 600mg of DXM, a bunch of Ketamine, 25mg of 2C-B and a bunch of weed.

It’s a strange feeling, the first time I hit it, I wasn’t holding the smoke long enough, so I went through 2 bowls of Changa… but when that shit did kick in, the only words I can think of are “holy, fuck”. This was the third time I'd done DMT, and by far the most amazing.

Suddenly, I had created a whole civilisation in my mind, the concept of our actual civilisation was gone, not even a memory of it. I was fully immersed in this word upon which I had created in my imagination. It was amazing. There were jobs, there were families, there were children, there were schools, there were buildings. Every single person in that world had a life as interesting and as detailed as every single person in our world.

For the first segment of this experience I was getting a flyby tour through this civilisation, observing how the functioned, observing peoples problems and helping them solve them, without ever physically intervening. You could say I was in a position similar to that of which some people would consider a “god”. This experience actually has led me from being a convinced atheist, to an agnostic person. I had 2 friends with me that night, who also smoked some of the Changa.

One of them was named Josh. He was a good friend of mine, we smoked a lot of weed together and tripped on acid all the time, tonight was no different. Whilst I was in this god-like position I had taken extreme notice of one family, and one person in particular, this was my friend Josh. He worked as a construction worker in this world, but he was actually a cyber-security guy in real life. He had a family, he had a wife, he had children, it was amazing. I can’t describe the memory because it feels like I can still vividly picture what they all looked like, but I have no idea what they looked like at the same time.

Moving on, after observing this society for a long time, what felt like days, if not weeks, I felt a large sickness, I’d never felt so terrible before, suddenly my vision faded to all kinds of colours I cannot describe or picture now, and I was submerged in water, I saw the vision of my own throat. I was being puked into this civilisation out of my own mouth as one of these people. Upon being puked out I was greeted by a blue entity, this entity did not have a mouth nor any facial features other than some eyes, which lacked any detail, no iris, no pupils, just a ball kinda thing.

I was walking around this society, it was an experience that I can only describe as dreamy, I felt the novelty I had felt when I had first moved to a big city from a small town, everything was new, anything was possible, this was life. This whole time I had basically forgotten who I actually was, and that I had actually just smoked a drug. It was a crazy experience to say the very least. All these large structures, filled with individuals working their jobs, earning for their families. What I perceived in this world was that although the city itself was beautiful, the people within it were not happy, they were not living fairy tale lives, each one of these people had issues, and they all had emotion. I felt as if I was experiencing every single one of these individuals emotions all at the same time, and as I began to sober up, I was hit with a lot of despair and grief.

When I had finally returned to reality, after what felt like an extremely long time, I jumped out of the chair I was in, and began to cry whilst exclaiming to my good friends that were with me “They had lives! Every single one of them had lives!”, I was truly disturbed by the loss of this civilisation, even though I had only created it in my imagination some 15 minutes before, I had developed such a deep connection with this world, partly because I believe it represented myself. I can’t tell you why I believe the city represented myself and my mind, other than I just do, looking back on the experience, it felt like I actually experienced myself more than I experienced any kind of “trip” or “high”, but at the time I was oblivious to all of this.

All in all, 10/10 would DMT again.

Exp Year: 2016ExpID: 109523
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19 
Published: Nov 23, 2017Views: 1,069
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