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I Died and Came Back, My Life Forever Changed
Products - Synthetic Cannabinoids (K2)
Citation:   Donna J. "I Died and Came Back, My Life Forever Changed: An Experience with Products - Synthetic Cannabinoids (K2) (exp108937)". Erowid.org. Aug 30, 2016. erowid.org/exp/108937

 
DOSE:
3 hits smoked Products - Spice-Like Smoking Blends
BODY WEIGHT: 140 lb
First (And Last) Time I Used K-2

It has been over 3 yrs. Now and I can safely say it was the worst decision I have ever made, and the most damaging, life altering experience. My son was home from college, he had been using it instead of pot so that he could pass drug tests. I was curious as to what it made one feel like. in my youth I have tried almost every street drug there was and never had much problem with them, so I was sure I could handle k-2.


[Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!] I rolled it up and smoked 3 hits on the way home from the store (thankfully only a few blocks from home), immediately I knew something was terribly wrong, I couldn't see things right, I couldn't focus, my car felt extra big, I barely made it to my driveway without wrecking my car, I felt death coming on, hard to breathe, heart beat very rapid, fear, I couldn't figure out how to use my key to open the front door so I rang the doorbell over and over afraid I would die before my son opened the door. I wanted to tell him I loved him 1 last time and how sorry I was for smoking k-2.

He opened the door and I fell into the house, my breathing was worse, it was getting harder and harder to breathe
it was getting harder and harder to breathe
and I collapsed on the floor, was able to ask him to call 911 b4 collapsing, at first he said 'mom you're just having a bad trip you will be fine' until he saw the look in my eyes telling him I'm dying. He got them on the phone and as he was telling him our address my last thought was 'oh God no! Please don't let me die here right in front of my son!'

I died b4 the ambulance took their time getting there. Everything just went black, like the lights went out and then suddenly I felt my spirit come in through the back door (closed, and locked with deadbolt). Flew in through the door and lay down into my lifeless body. The paramedics were just then coming in, I crawled across the living room and sat up with my back against the back door still traumatized from the experience. They took my blood pressure, pulse, and whatever else they do and started to try to load me onto a gurney but I said no, they tried to make me go, but I told them I have the right to refuse to go and they would be violating my rights by making me.

For 3 days afterwords I stuttered, trouble thinking, kept reliving the experience over and over in my head, horrible shame and guilt for what I must have done to my son by seeing his mom die. My life is forever changed now. There are many important things I can't remember, I'm not the same person I used to be at all. I have severe PTSD, agoraphobia, and general anxiety disorder. I can't work, most days I can't leave the house, I experience this odd feeling often that I am actually really dead and this is just my consciousness dreaming up things, I get panic attacks, and no one understands what it's like.

I wish I would never had tried it, but I did, and now every day I regret it. I want my life back. Damn them to hell, the people putting this poison out on the market. May they pay dearly for what they are doing to so many people.

Exp Year: 2013ExpID: 108937
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 40
Published: Aug 30, 2016Views: 6,807
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