Citation: John Smith. "Brought Forth Some Complicated Feelings: An Experience with Mescaline & MDMA (exp108375)". Erowid.org. May 9, 2019. erowid.org/exp/108375
Wow. The only word I can use to describe the feeling of euphoria, ease and clarity felt during the peak of this trip.
The day started off around 7pm, 175mg dosed once and then again at 7.30. Apparently splitting the dose this way reduces nausea, I didn't receive any so perhaps there is some truth to this - although I have nothing to compare against.
I spent some time just chilling in my flat with flat mate, before deciding to go for a brief walk around 8.15, I was starting to slowly feel the effects of the psychedelic. There was a lovely warming body load present, very slight changes in visual perception and a definite change in tactile senses.
I arrived back home shortly before 9, a group of friends whom I feel very comfortable with individually arrived between 9-10, mostly drinking as we were going to see a DJ later that night. I'm feeling in a definite psychedelic state by this point, however quite mild. I'm mostly clear headed, and can follow conversation easily relative to mushrooms or acid
I'm mostly clear headed, and can follow conversation easily relative to mushrooms or acid
, I am however experiencing an increase in this aforementioned warming body load. Very mild hallucinations, which only occur if I am to focus intensely on something.
12am, at the venue for the DJ now. Reached no real hallucinations still, however in a very nice mindset and still feeling this warming glow. It feels fun to move my body around to the music, I feel floaty with a heightened sense of movement. After some time on the dance floor, I decide to take MDMA in the thought that it may potentiate the trip.
Fast forward to 1AM, extreme euphoria, happiness and sense of oneness. Better than even the first time I took MDMA. I began to become extremely thankful for the things I have in life, a theme most trips I have had recently encompass, showing outward love to all my friends. There is definitely still no real visual effects for me at this dose, I am going to try again in the future at some point perhaps >500mg range.
After the night was over, 6AM, I spent some time with a few friends and smoked weed, talked and relaxed. The effects of both mescaline and MDMA had mostly worn out by now. Around 10AM I decided to sleep.
Mentally I took away something to ponder on from the experience, I brought forth some complicated feelings I have been hiding from with clarity and no sense of anxiety. I am still trying to piece together what to do regarding this and how to go forth from here, however it was inevitably something I was going to have to face. The experience simply got the ball rolling.
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