Citation: Floyd_Haywood_R.. "Wanton Disregard For Safety Amazing Trip: An Experience with Escaline, 4-MeO-PCP & Tianeptine (exp104716)". Erowid.org. Dec 17, 2015. erowid.org/exp/104716
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Weight: 210 lbs
Physical Condition: Fair, I get regular exercise and lift weights at the gym
Substance(s): Escaline and 4-MeO-PCP
Dosage: 50mg Escaline, 75mg 4-MeO-PCP... Later on, 50mg Escaline, 50mg 4-MeO-PCP, 50mg Tianeptine (then 50mg more Tianeptine again), 75mg 4-Meo-PCP (again)
Route of Administration: Insufflation (Escaline) and Insufflation (4-MeO-PCP), Oral (Escaline, 4-MeO-PCP, Tianeptine)
Prior Substances Used: DXM, LSD, Mushrooms, DPT, 2-CE, 3-MeO-PCP, Methoxetamine (MXE), Mixed Amphetamine Salts (Adderall), Dextroamphetamine (Vyvanse), ethylphenidate/Dextromethylphenidate, Methamphetamine, MDMA, 5-APB, Propylhexedrine (Benzedrex), Morphine (MS Contin & IR), Hydromorphone (Dilaudid), Fentanyl, Oxymorphone (Opana), Oxycodone (OxyContin & IR), Hydrocodone, Codeine, Spice/Synthetic Cannabinoids (Various unknown), Cannabis/Marijuana, Alprazolam and various Benzodiazepines, various pharmaceuticals (too many to mention really), Diphenhydramine (Benadryl), Alcohol, and probably more I am forgetting.
I like to experiment, and I like experiences, many of these drugs I have only used once or twice or a handful of times only. I've dabbled into just about anything you can think of.
Setting: My apartment, alone. I've never used a trip sitter before, although this is because I know myself and trust myself. I still highly recommend one for anybody else who is planning on taking a hallucinogenic. I advocate education and personal responsibility when it comes to drug use, make informed decisions that keep you and others out of harm's way. Nobody needs to get hurt, have their life ruined, or needs to wind up in jail or a psych ward.
Mind Set: Very positive and highly curious, today has been a great day so far, and my 4-MeO-PCP, Tianeptine, and Escaline just came in the mail. I've had trips in the past that others would consider 'bad trips', but I value both positive and negative experience so they have never really bothered me. I just deal with them as they're happening. After all, I took a powerful psychoactive substance and knew exactly what I was getting myself into. I am a strong believer in personal responsibility. However, it's important to mention I have never had a bad trip from a psychedelic before. Psychedelics to me feel like I gain access to life's proverbial 'console', if you will, and then I type in TGM.
For those who don't get the reference, it's like activating God Mode. Bad vibes and negativity just aren't a thing, I feel like I am in complete control of my environment and my insanity, and the trip is mine to do what I want with. Taking 2-CE is the closest I've come to 'losing my shit' on a psychedelic, and honestly when I take psychedelics that is exactly what I am asking for.
Taking 2-CE is the closest I've come to 'losing my shit' on a psychedelic, and honestly when I take psychedelics that is exactly what I am asking for.
I didn't pay for the drug to have a little walk in the park, I want my reality and my ego shattered into bits. The only drug that has taught me to respect it in this regard is 3-MeO-PCP (when I combined it with DXM), and that was because it was more like experiencing a schizophrenic psychosis in which I truly could no longer tell what was the drug and what was really happening (but I was entirely lucid, not delirious like on diphenhydramine), and still I enjoyed the experience after I had it. The whole trip reminded me of the movie Jacob's Ladder. I just learned to tighten the dosage up. Thankfully I didn't do anything stupid, I could easily see how people have wound up going on killing sprees on PCP (by mistake) after that.
Plan for trip report: I plan on making updates as I am tripping, but given the length of the experience (8 to 12 hours) I am most likely going to come back in after the fact and add some more in, I'll be sure and note when I do this.
************FOREWARNING: Do not EVER be as reckless with drugs as I have been tonight. I feel I know what I am doing, but I could still get my ass kicked. Do not take me as an example of good judgement under ANY circumstances. I broke pretty much every rule in the drug book. I also happen to have a natural tolerance to most drugs, and a retarded tolerance to DXM that has crossed over into other dissociatives as well.*****************
T-0:00 (3:35 PM)
I weigh out roughly 50mg Escaline and 75mg 4-MeO-PCP on my scales. They are accurate to the mg, but are a bit wonky, so the amount isn't quite exact. The substances burn but not as bad as 3-MeO-PCP. The drip is kind of zingy, but not really that pleasant. Then again, what drip usually is? After about 5 to 10 minutes, the drip is gone. My pizza and hot wings got here just a minute ago, so I am going to eat some of those, but not too much.
T-0:30 (4:05 PM)
Starting to feel myself draw back a bit, it's difficult to explain. My extremities are getting somewhat cold, which falls in line with the effects of escaline, although at this point it may be placebo or because I just ate some hot wings and smoked a cigarette. Currently listening to music and posting in /dis/ on 420chan. Chilling.
T-0:45 (4:15 PM)
I don't mean to be updating so often, but I'm starting to get that rising excitement in my stomach and in the back of my head that I usually get when I take acid or shrooms, tonight's gonna be a good night. Music appreciation seems to be rising, though only marginally. Still may be placebo, I know that both drugs take roughly an hour and a half to two hours to really hit you, even when snorted.
T-1:00 (4:35 PM)
Beginning to think it was indeed placebo, although my head feels clearer than normal at the moment. I am calm, extremities no longer cold, I feel normal as far as body temperature goes. No noticeable effects as of right now other than the clearer than usual head and maybe lights seeming a bit brighter, I'm not going to update again until something substantial happens.
T-1:30 (5:05 PM)
Clicked a link provided by a fellow /dis/ciple leading to a youtube video of Solar Fields - Cocoon Moon/Monogram and get the distinct feeling as soon as the music starts that I have started tripping. Not strongly, but the other music I had been listening to did not cause this effect, and it isn't disappearing, so hopefully things are about to ramp up. Things feel vaguely distant in the sense that even though they are happening right here, they are simultaneously happening in a space located within the confines of my mind. It's not regular dissociation as it were, it's a feeling I've never quite had before.
T-2:00 (5:35 PM)
Things are actually happening. I feel an odd warmth in my legs, crotch, and stomach, it's very pleasing. Looking around in my living room, it looks as if the light is flickering, one of the biggest signs I've taken a psychedelic. Other than these effects, nothing much to speak of. At this point music sounds different, but I can't describe how, it's like I am hearing it differently than it actually is? Usually I am not at such a loss for words in describing what is happening to me. Perhaps it's that I am noticing certain parts of the music more like I do with DXM, only not the same parts. With DXM, I notice the bass and rhythm much more, and the instruments sort of all sound discombobulated. Now, it is more like I am noticing treble more, but that isn't quite right. It seems more like random bits are standing out to me more than usual, but they are truly random in which pieces of the music they are, there doesn't seem to be any kind of discernible pattern to it.
T-4:00 (7:35 PM)
Not enough is happening, I failed to check if the bioavailability of escaline was even worth snorting it, so I weighed out an additional 50mg of both substances and took both orally. Resetting trip time. Also dosing 50mg tianeptine because I'm the adventurous sort.
Not sure why it is kicking in so fast, but I am definitely under the influence of a psychedelic. It looks lights are popping and flashing, a good sign I'm starting to trip. I feel good, very comfortable and at ease.
T-2:00 (10:35 PM)
Mentally, I feel very lucid and sober, so far nothing extraordinary as far as tripping goes. Vasoconstriction is beginning to rear its ugly face, but it's nothing breathing techniques can't really fix. Visually I am getting a mix of what I see on acid and mushrooms, i.e. visual drifting, things sort of breathing, very bright colors, pronounced tracers, and lights flashing a lot. No real nausea to speak of, although at first I felt kind of iffy. Not really nauseous, per se, but eh. Music is thoroughly enjoyable.
T-2:10 (10:45 PM)
Feeling the redosed 4-MeO-PCP and escaline kick in right about now, deciding to take another 50mg tianeptine to add to the euphoria. Music is lovely, it seems to flow with ease as if it were a stream, making its way down a mountain directly into my ears. I feel utterly amazing, I am in very positive spirits. I was playing Destiny earlier, if anything the drugs seemed to enhance my game playing abilities. However, I felt too much of the experience would be wasted if I continued to play, so I opted to get back on 420chan and listen more closely to music. The vasoconstriction seems to have gone away, or at least I don't feel like lots of air bubbles are flowing through my veins any more (like when you take too much adderall or propylhexedrine).
T-2:30 (11:15 PM)
Redosed another 75mg 4-MeO-PCP orally, for science, euphoria, and psychonautic exploration. That, and I'm not exactly in my right mind right now, lol. This has been a very nice experience so far. I am filled with a very positive energy and my body feels very light but there is a hint of tightness. My limbs also feel very... 'full'. It's the best way I can describe it, it's a nice feeling. It's as if I truly inhabit the space I am residing in. It is a feeling of actually existing, right here, right now. My ability to perform math has been somewhat diminished, as has been the case while writing this report. I've had to edit the T- times a few times because of terrible math. Overall, however, my ability to reason has not been diminished, or at least does not appear to be. I feel very content and in tune with myself. It seems as if I have found the correct vibration, the correct resonance, so to speak, of my being. It's like the planets came into alignment, I feel like I am a set of lenses that have all been focused now to a single point. The beginning of the trip admittedly felt a bit hollow, but now, oh now that is not the case at all. I feel very right, I feel as though I started the journey soulless, but have since not only found my soul, but my place in the universe. I feel very alive, for once in my life. Typically I feel very emotionless and detached, very dead. Not now, not any more.
T-3:00 (11:35 PM)
The euphoria just keeps mounting, I feel greater and greater. I feel like the champion of the earth, I am certain the 4-MeO-PCP and Tianeptine are largely the cause of this, I know not to get too carried away. I am listening to OK Computer right now, it seems like the perfect album. The visuals have not gone much further than brighter and flashing lights, a little bit of visual drifting here and there, enhanced pattern recognition, seeing fractals and geometric patterns overlayed on top of things. It was not nearly as visual as I had hoped, especially knowing mescaline's visuals rival LSD's. However, I am not all that disappointed, I feel great and have had a great experience thus far, what is there to be unhappy about? I am alive, I am living on my own--self sufficient. I have food, I make enough money, I play video games still and enjoy them, I'm good at them. I can play music, I have great tastes in music (if I do say so myself), I am confident, and I am a competent artist, both in 2D and 3D. I can write well enough that I could publish if I wanted, I don't yet have a degree, but I am intelligent enough to get in most schools without much trouble. Life is good, I just have to appreciate it more. What's more, I'm a veteran (of the literal sort), I'm a seasoned psychonaut and oneironaut (lucid dreamer), and really the world is just lying in wait at my finger tips. There's really nothing to feel bad about.
For a brief moment, closing my eyes reveals an explosion of colorful geometric shapes, it is all very beautiful. I will have time for more CEVs as the night goes on, however, these are very long lasting drugs, and I am too curious to keep my eyes closed right now.
T-3:30 (12:15 AM)
As I am listening to In Rainbows, another great Radiohead album, the trip has suddenly gotten much more psychedelic. I'm not complaining at all, it's just a pleasant surprise is all.
T-4:00 (12:35 AM)
I'm feeling so good and right at the moment that it's stupid, everything is perfect. Everything is in its right place, the world is as the world should be. I am so happy, content, and at peace with everyone, everything, and myself. It's beautiful really.
T-4:45 (1:20 AM)
Things are still very nice, I am now listening to Yellow Swans - Going Places under the direction of a fellow /dis/ciple. It's a nice album, I like it. Staring down at my arm, I notice something I can't quite describe. It's like an odd visual distortion, where the color separates (not unlike chromatic aberration) and forms back in on itself, and warps the space around what is my 'arm'. In fact this distortion encapsulates me, it's a funny thing.
T-5:20 (2:05 AM)
Well, the excitement has died down some, and I think the trip has leveled off. I will post more tomorrow about how things went in retrospect, but for now I am going to go ahead and experience the rest of the night.
T-5:30 (2:15 AM)
I just realized that I took that other 75mg of 4-MeO-PCP about 2 hours ago, and 4-meo is much more sedating that 3-meo, so I thought at first I was just getting tired. On the contrary, now things are starting to get interesting, much more dissociative in nature. My mind feels rather, foggy isn't quite the right way to put it, but not clear. It feels good though.
T-7:30 (4:15 AM)
Well, things really have settled down now. This is pretty much the end of the trip. I will add in a retrospective summary later on tomorrow.
Here is a post I made in the /psy/ section of 420chan the next day after getting no sleep and continually redosing.
'So, after a rather sleepless night of wasting lots of drugs, I owe /psy/ an apology. I never gave escaline the proper chance it deserved. After mostly coming down this morning, with very little to eat, and after playing a lot of Destiny, I decided, fuck it, why not parachute another 100mg escaline. This time, it started to hit me within an hour, probably because I've been up for over 24 hours and have already been on 4-MeO-PCP, escaline, and tianeptine like a mad man anyway, but this has been an amazing experience.
Where escaline first started to separate itself from other psychedelics or other hallucinogens for that matter was when I started to see half of what I was reading upside down. That's right, words, letters, everything I was reading was upside down and right side up simultaneously. The fuck, right? Then, after killing some of the time playing Destiny some more, I got over the peak (where it started to get almost impossible to read shit), almost instantly the peak kind of vanished and I was on the plateau. And there, an explosion of colorful geometric shapes, patterns, and fractals engulfed everything. I decided to go have a good look in the mirror. I saw myself, and took a step back. I saw now how people claimed that we had reptilian ancestors. My facial features, my bone structure, everything reeked and poured of it. And then my facial hair and arm hair began to turn into to feathers, and it was like I was turning into one of the newer depictions of dinosaurs that were supposedly bird like, and then my feathers turned back to hair, and then back to human skin. I would continually sprout feathers, hair, scale, skin and blood vessels, it's all fucking amazing. God damn /psy/ I love you.'
The ever-changing transformation between 'man-reptile-bird/dinosaur-ape-no skin human being' was one of the most profound and awesome hallucinations I have ever had in my life. The visuals I had went above and beyond simple OEVs, they seamlessly blended mind's-eye mental imagery with what I was actually seeing. Colors and and bright flashes of exploding light were continually exploding fantastically in my vision, and visual distortions a la shimmering iridescence that you get from mirages and heat waves were also happening, it was impossible to control or explain.
Words and letters were no only upside down sometimes, but often flipped horizontally as well, it made reading very difficult at times, but not impossible. The combination trip was actually rather light, and the mental aspect and visuals were actually stymied quite a bit, I feel the initial wanton combining of drugs was very much a waste and I wish I had tried everything separately first.
I feel the initial wanton combining of drugs was very much a waste and I wish I had tried everything separately first.
I tripped *much* harder visually and mentally when I took the escaline again by itself, but there's no telling how much 4-MeO-PCP and tianeptine were still in my system, probably a lot, and the sleep deprivation no doubt played a large role in things as well. By the end of the night, I developed aniscoria, the condition of having two differently sized pupils.
All in all, I made highly dangerous decisions and would not recommend that ANYBODY, under ANY circumstances follow my example. To give you some background, I used to be in the Army, part of the 82nd Airborne Division, in the 1 -508th Parachute Infantry Regiment, and I used to jump out of planes pretty much for a living. This isn't something I am necessarily proud of. A culmination of life experiences, personal curiosity, adventurous spirit, love of psychonautic exploration, and my experience in the Army has left me without fear of death. This is not an excuse for my behavior. I cannot in good conscience (if you could even say I have one) submit this report without saying at least once more, do not follow my example!! Dying earlier than you would otherwise not be not worth it, there are too many people out there that care and maybe even depend on you, and you are going to die anyway. Ensuring an earlier death is pointless, if not irresponsible and cruel to those other people I mentioned. That being said, you must make your own decisions and forge your own path, no one can do it for you. As long as you are prepared to accept responsibility for your actions and deal with the aftermath, I will not and would not judge you. Have fun everybody, I hope you had as much fun reading this as I had experiencing it all and writing it!
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