Citation: John Doe. "As a Treatment for Alcoholism: An Experience with Mushrooms (exp96362)". Erowid.org. Dec 23, 2020. erowid.org/exp/96362
The purpose of this report is to share what I believe is an effective treatment for alcoholism via psilocybin mushroom therapy. My father was and is to this day an alcoholic, and in my mid 20's I realized that so was I. I drank pretty much every night to take the edge off of the day, gulping down the booze to get buzzed fast.
Regarding drugs, their recreational use has never been appealing to me. After an intellectual interest in psychedelics developed between me and a friend, we had taken mushrooms a handful of times before for their intellectually stimulating effects, and each time enjoyed a profound appreciation for life, the world, my family, friends, etc. With these pleasant experiences behind me I decided to take a large dose of mushrooms and simply meditate and see what my mind would come up with. I was not on any medications at the time, so it was just me and the mushrooms.
At around 9:00pm, I ate a 7 gram dose of mushrooms on an empty stomach (7 grams is a lot, but I'm a big guy), got in my pajamas, went to bed and turned off the light. I knew I wouldn't be sleeping, but I wanted to be in as comfortable place as possible for my oncoming experience. Since I ate them on an empty stomach it didn't take long to feel the effects.
At about 9:30pm, the effects of the mushrooms were coming upon me very quickly. I started seeing flashes of vivid color even though my eyes were closed and the bed I was in felt incredibly comfortable as the body high began to envelop me. I won't get into the details of the trip, as standard experiences of mushroom trips can be read from many other reports here, but what I want to discuss is that the mushrooms gave me the most overwhelming sense of self-examination and self-analysis I have ever experienced
the mushrooms gave me the most overwhelming sense of self-examination and self-analysis I have ever experienced
. I began to see myself as others see me, from the outside, as an alcoholic. It was like an out of body experience, observing myself as a third party. Not only did I not like what I saw, but it repulsed me, and a profound sadness enveloped me as I realized what I was doing to myself. Many others here have shared how, while on mushrooms, emotions take on a whole new sense of significance, and the regret I experienced regarding my drinking completely overwhelmed me to the point that I didn't want anything to do with alcohol again.
Hours later, around 4:00am, as I came down from the trip, still overwhelmed with my experience, I went to sleep and it took me a good 6 hours after waking up the next morning to completely get my bearings back together. That day, after completely sobering up from the mushrooms, just the thought of alcohol made me feel physically ill and I had absolutely no desire to drink.
The interesting thing is, it has been months since this experience and to this day I don't really desire alcohol like I used to. I'm amazed how it changed me, and at the same time I'm very upset that the current government prohibition against psilocybin mushrooms is keeping what could be a very real therapy for alcoholics from being studied and used as such.
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