Citation: Sam. "Profoundly Weird and Weirdly Profound: An Experience with DMT & 5-HTP (exp95454)". Erowid.org. Apr 1, 2020. erowid.org/exp/95454
Iím no newcomer to psychedelics or DMT...the latter I have ingested in the form of ayahuasca, both in Peru and here in the UK, Iíve taken my own pharma concoctions, and I have smoked it on numerous occasions...although not for a while. This would be my first experience of what I believe would be termed a full DMT breakthrough.
So I had a new and particularly clean looking batch of spice, and having switched to caapi changa as my spice smoke of choice, I thought I would smoke some freebase spice with my glass pipe, it being a long time since Iíd done so.
having switched to caapi changa as my spice smoke of choice, I thought I would smoke some freebase spice with my glass pipe, it being a long time since Iíd done so.
In the course of the evening Iíd had maybe two beers and a few spliffs, it being the weekend (wouldnít usually mix alcohol and spice) and prior to smoking I had taken two 100mg 5-HTP capsules. I thought I should give some background as I think there may have been some interaction going on. I thought the 5-HTP may produce an interesting synergy.
So...new batch of spice, same glass pipe as used previously, smoking technique more or less the same...but a very different result. For around ten minutes beforehand I did some mindfulness breathing to relax me and still my mind before taking the plunge. I thought the dose I used as around 50mg (eyeballed...) but Iím thinking it was maybe a bit more than this...
I took the pipe, and used a candle to heat the pipe and get the vapours flowing, then I took a good lungful...I felt a shift very quickly...I set the pipe down...and then BAM! I seemed to Ďcome toí to find some very powerful alien force trying to wrest control of my mind or consciousness. There was not even a millisecond here to contemplate having another hit from the pipe! I usually would preserve but this hit me like an electric psychedelic tsunami. Of my time alive on Earth, the pure, exquisite, primal terror experienced in those few minutes were well and truly beyond anything I have ever experienced before...I have had the DMT terrors once before, smoking around 100mg while on pharma...but this eclipsed that particular incident. The experience felt incredibly electric, I was enveloped by a fierce and awesome energy...the experience was the most intense, alien, bizarre, terrifying, deep, profound and beautiful of my life. It was truly ineffable...words donít mean much there, they really lack the power to describe such experiences. Interspersed with very powerful DMT imagery, I experienced full blown and very detailed visions of my life. These happened at a crazy break neck speed, I would be shown this interdimensional montage or flipbook incredibly rapidly and then I would be teleported between these different highly detailed memories and places in my mind...but I was there reliving them. Iíve never had a drug experience as vivid as this, and I never remember experiencing such vivid and detailed visions on DMT ever before. Usually it is a very alien but beautiful experience for me...this was both very alien and other worldly while also very personal as well.
This experience was very special to me. NO previous dabbling with psychedelics...DMT included...could have prepared me for the depth or power of this experience. I didnít encounter any entities as such...I havenít yet via DMT...
I didnít encounter any entities as such...I havenít yet via DMT...
but I really feel I got a glimpse into something very deep and very powerful. I feel really very grateful for the experience, despite it scaring the hell out of me at the same time!
Itís weird because I come down from that state, the universe folds back in itself to conform to sober serotonin mode, and I lose that ability to see or describe or bring back much of what was experienced. But I remember feeling...while in that state...I was experiencing something deeply powerful and mysterious, to put it lightly. And I like to think Iím a pretty rational and sceptical guy, but to coin a much used phrase, this blew my mind in a way it has never ever been blown before. And hey, even if it is nothing more than highly elaborate and spectacular brain fireworks, then that alone is still amazing!!
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