Citation: bleakvalue. "Mind Creator: An Experience with Olanzapine, Lithium, Paroxetine & Tianeptine (exp95128)". Erowid.org. Dec 16, 2015. erowid.org/exp/95128
I was recently put in a human behavior correction institution for violent and confrontational behavior and to correct my need for extreme social isolation.
I was given risperidone by the ignorant and careless psychiatrists. I have never in my life known such abject misery. Risperidone is a mind eraser and I hate it. Anyway, after that whole thing I decided to go to a real neurologist and try and sort out this whole problem. I described how I had lost my ability to stay alert and upright and he prescribed paroxetine and tianeptine to begin with.
After I stabilized I was given in addition to the above, a mixture of lithium and olanzapine. Well, right now, I am in great form and love the world for what it is. I also love myself and my abilities. I have a sort of fascination for chess and chess endgames. I can now figure what I had been missing before I had started olanzapine. Chess is a game in which you have to synthesize information from different parts of the board and with olanzapine I can do that. Olanzapine since it can enrich my world, especially from previous unpleasant encounters with the older antipsychotics.
I should also mention that healthcare, in my country, is not what it should be. Force is used against people who are already suffering and the medication and treatment procedure is not free from vindictive and harmful intentions. People who put me in the institution and did what they did to me were wrong.
However, I am grateful for the beneficial effects of olanzapine which is also quite a cheap drug.
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