Citation: Handlebar Moosetach. "Surfing the Fractal: An Experience with 4-AcO-DMT (exp94907)". Erowid.org. Oct 22, 2020. erowid.org/exp/94907
So, as a bit of foreword/background I'd just like to say that this is amazing stuff! Myself and a small group of fellow psychonauts have all made many trips on this, in doses ranging from 15mg to 130mg.
We've found at about 15mg, we can feel a definite emotional enhancement and psychedelic headspace. Also a mild visual effect of the detail in patterns really popping out. At 25mg or so, it starts to shift gears, with actual OEV's rather than visual distortions/enhancements. At around 35-45mg, then you have really put on the hyperspace afterburner. All sense of relativity is lost. Language is foreign and difficult to interpret. Concepts like time become convoluted. Even gravity seems arbitrary. Anything beyond 50-60mg, and we're are looking at a nasty tummy ache.
So, let me go into detail about this most recent voyage. I cannot say that the times are accurate. I did try to take a note of the time after peaking, but wasn't really able to make sense of chronological order, nor was I able to 'triangulate' the time based on events on my cellphone. But I do think the timing is roughly accurate, and probably precise enough for an anecdotal report like this.
It's about 10pm. Myself and 3 others ready ourselves for the madness. 2 of them have yet to experience a full-blown trip, and decide to take 90mg 4-aco-DMT fumarate each (yeek!). One of them is quite experienced, and also takes 90mg. I'm the relatively sober trip guide, taking only one 45mg capsule. A 4-aco experienced, but sober friend is also present to help sit. We all pop our capsules about the same time.
20 minutes after dosing: I'm a bit nervous. This is the first trip I've been on in about 2 months. It's been a long time, and some kind of psychedelic aversion has been holding me back. But after about 20 minutes, I realize...shit just got real. So I grab a cushy sleeping bag, and begin a bit of meditation to prepare myself.
40 minutes after dosing: My mind is fluid, and I'm prepared for blast-off. I feel a familiar and distinct tryptamine sensation come over me. Slight butterflies in the stomach, an odd tension in the neck. The room begins to feel very claustrophobic. I leave the two newbies with my experienced friend, and go outside.
1hr: I post up on a trampoline, cosy in my big cushy sleeping bag. Trees and stars are overhead. This a very awesome setting! The stars glimmer, as if someone in the sky turned up the intensity of the twinkling. I feel a sudden urge to vomit. I try to negotiate it, simply letting the feeling pass. I decide at this point that it would be better to let it come out. After a brief purge of some stomach acid, I feel relieved and rejuvenated. Stomach acid tastes so tangy and yummy on 4-AcO. XD
1hr, 20 minutes: Constellations begin to reveal themselves in the stars. I watch this show for 15 minutes or so. But gradually, the stars begin to become harder and harder to see as what appear to be purple/yellow centipedes appear and disappear from view, as if there are wormholes in the sky that they are traveling between.
1hr, 45 minutes: The visuals start to pick up. I take one last look at the trees overhead, noting that they are in fact trees. I close my eyes, repeating a simple mantra of my intentions 'Discovery, Curiosity, Transformation, Creativity'.
2hrs, 30 minutes: I find myself swimming through a world of fractal entities. Internal dialogue is rich at this point. I'm communicating with entities, trying to take in all I can. I open my eyes for a brief moment, looking at my surroundings. Everything feels incredibly natural, and I feel as if I'm somehow reconnected with my natural instincts. I look back at the trees above. I still know they are trees, but I cannot get my eyes to seem them as such. They look like some sort of deep sea tentacle fish, but in a benevolent way. ;)
3hrs: This is starting to get very intense. My internal monologues are split into dialogues. Instead of one voice, there is a conference of archetypes, all representing distinct yet familiar parts of my psyche. Other entities are abundant at this point. Entities are prevalent. Suddenly, my own ego becomes an external entity. I'm a detached observer, scooting through fractal tunnels, totally intrigued and immersed. Like the visuals, ideas too are fractal, infinitely detailed, yet all branches off the same fundamental formula. One divine source, but entirely distinct flavours. Words can't really describe this..
4hrs (estimation): I'm starting to feel an odd and seemingly sourceless anxiety. My mind is still in a state of flow, but I can sense no internal cause of my anxiety. Less than a minute later, the tripping/experienced friend, and the sober/experienced friend both come outside. They inform me that one of the guys inside is having a bad time. I grab my sleeping bag and go back in.
4hrs, 30 minutes: One friend is in the fetal position, ranting in a self-loathing and negative manner. He appears to be stuck in a negative track of thought. I do my best to counsel him, and pull him out of it, gently redirecting negative thoughts where I can. My efforts aren't successful, so I simply bring him some water and give him space. The other new guy is having a blast. Manic rambling, laughing until he is out of breath, rolling on the floor, cuddling with random items. Him and I exchange a very jolly and manic dialogue. The mystical feel of the trip is gone at this point, and it feels like a light giddy shroom dose.
5hrs: The negative friend is feeling better. The jolly vibes exchanged seem to have permeated his self-torturing thought loops I then have the urge to defecate. I attend to that matter, deciding to take a shower. Though someone had vomited in the shower. I try to rinse it out, but the drain is clogged. Blech. I will deal with this when sober.
5hrs, 45 min: Sober friend puts on the movie Avatar. The social subleties are enhanced. This was such a goooooood idea. The jungles of Pandora are so similar to how one experiences Earth nature on 4-AcO... Everything has a purpose... the plants resonating with a deliberate presence.
7hrs: The friend who was having a bad time is now sobered up. We have discussions about the weird idiosyncracies of human language and culture. He is actually a quite sensible and intelligent guy. The friend who was manic and laughing is still experiencing a cathartic rapture. The other friend who was tripping is in his bedroom with his sober gf. Everyone is feeling good, and we decide to nod off.
The next day, there is no negative feeling on the body. I feel amazing, reborn, ready to take on the world.
In closing, I'd like to say 4-AcO-DMT is a marvelous substance. It is a definite favorite of mine! It appears to be very forgiving physically, and won't mindrape you too bad if you disrespect it (although if it does, it is usually for the best). It's something myself and my tripping partners hold very sacred, and definitely something that should be used in the manner of such! We would be careful of who we introduce to it, as it isn't for the close-minded and unappreciative.
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