Citation: Tramps Lady. "Moderately Euphoric Reflective: An Experience with Cocaine, Alprazolam & Kratom (exp93592)". Erowid.org. Jul 17, 2016. erowid.org/exp/93592
A Moderate Experience
Many of the trip reports I've read are from people who do A LOT of whatever drugs. They are either frequent users, heavy users, or at the very least open to consuming a fairly large quantity at one time. As someone who is new to the world of recreational use, this can be very intimidating so I wanted to present a different perspective.
I've started using various substances within the past year. I've been smoking pot frequently, and have experimented with other things maybe once a month or so. This past weekend, my boyfriend and I were seeking out MDMA, but our contact was out. He did, however, have some coke, which I had never really tried before. We decided to buy a gram and spend the evening experiencing something new for me, but fairly old hat for my BF.
I was nervous at first. I had tried crack once and found it to be agitating and uncomfortable. In my research, I had read that cocaine was easy to re-dose too frequently on, leading to binges and/or nasty comedowns. But I trusted my boyfriend, and we had nothing to do the next day so I could sleep off any hangover like effects. We also decided to set an alarm, limiting ourselves to one line per 15-30 minutes.
We also decided to set an alarm, limiting ourselves to one line per 15-30 minutes.
My BF set us out lines and we got started at about 10 pm.
The first things I noticed were the strange warm numbness in my nose and the horrible taste in the back of my throat. Have juice or something equally tasty to combat this! Before I got juice I almost gave up on the whole experience because the taste grossed me out so much. We decided to watch a movie, so we opened up Netflix. I didn't realize I was feeling anything until I couldn't stop talking about every movie I saw on the home page that I had any sort of memory attached to. It took quite a while to choose a movie because both of us were pretty chatty, although me more so than my BF. We finally settled on something and 'watched' a movie, mostly chatting about whatever popped into our heads.
Having done research into the effects and people's experiences, I spent a lot of the trip reflecting on what was going on in my head and body. I felt good. Not amazing, but good and clear headed. It felt like ecstasy lite; euphoric but not overwhelmingly so and without the emotional bonding. I DID however feel very lovey, but the primary thing I felt was emotionally reflective yet strangely unattached, so the lovey may have been coming from reflecting on my relationship and life rather than the drug itself. I would describe my experience as moderately euphoric reflective.
After about a few hours doing a line every 20 minutes or so, I started to feel done. I did not feel the impulse to re-dose that I had read about; I don't know if it's because I did so little, or my personality, but I didn't experience that. It was also getting late and while I was not at all tired, I knew I would regret it if I stayed up too late. We decided to take Xanax to help with the comedown. My boyfriend also smoked some weed, but I was enjoying how clear my head felt and decided not to indulge.
After this his and my experiences started to diverge a bit. He had cut himself larger lines, plus the weed and having taken Kratom earlier in the day as well, he started to feel much more down than I did. I didn't feel the sleepiness Xanax usually brings for me, and the only time I felt bad was when I thought of him falling asleep and me being awake alone. Wanting to feel sleepier, I took some kratom as well. We decided to do some yoga because we both felt a bit tense; it felt AMAZING. After this we got into bed.
The kratom with the Xanax made me feel very heavy. I still felt mentally awake, but bone tired in every other sense of the word. However, being too awake to actually sleep I requested that my BF stay awake with me a bit longer. We had some very tired, but emphatic sex, which was very enjoyable and after which he passed out and I was left to my own devices. I fell into an almost sleep state, where leftover waves of euphoria and bad/panic would take turns washing over me. As a regular sufferer of panic and anxiety, I used breathing and visualization relaxation techniques to fight off the bad and tried to enjoy the good. After about an hour, at 5 AM, I finally fell asleep.
The next day I woke up around 11, stayed awake for about and hour, and then fell back asleep until 5. I felt very, very tired and kind of bad, but in a vague way that a bit of weed and the nap fixed. From 5 until I went to bed at 9, I felt tired but normal. Since then, I've been thinking a lot about the experience and wanting to repeat it, but not feeling an overwhelming urge to do so. I want to do it again, but preferably earlier in the evening to hopefully spend less of the next day asleep. Overall, it was definitely a positive experience. I don't plan on doing it often, but it's certainly something I'm happy to have added to my repertoire.
[Reported Dose: '0.25 g cocaine']
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