Citation: C. "What Happened to Me: An Experience with Amphetamines (exp93329)". Erowid.org. Mar 28, 2018. erowid.org/exp/93329
I don't know what happened to me, because I'm not the same person that I used to be. Adderall puts me in a great euphoric feeling, but once I crash I feel like shit and put myself down, only to crave more. It's like a cycle because I tell myself that I'm going to stop but never end up doing so. It's become a habit. I can't even do my homework without it, I'm not even prescribed. I usually take some adderall from this girl that sits next to me in english class, and she gives them to me whenever I ask. It's horrible. I'm dragging myself deeper and deeper and I know it, yet I do nothing to stop myself... I like it too much. It mellows me out, helps me concentrate, and I actually do my homework. Maybe I started it because of all of the social pressures of high school, and the pressure to get good grades. I went from writing bull shit essays to writing essays that topped everyone else's in my class. Maybe that's why I like it so much, or maybe I'm just giving myself a reason to keep doing it. That's addiction. I don't know what I'm going to do.
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