Citation: Max W. "Addictive Mentally Not Physically: An Experience with LSD & Ketamine (exp92598)". Erowid.org. Dec 27, 2018. erowid.org/exp/92598
LSD Trip Addiction
[Reported Substance: "any hallucinogenic with ketamine"]
Discovering my preferred apparently non-addictive drug LSD or similar I entered a journey which became my goal and absolution. I persued the most enlightened aware powerful being I could be, bad trips were triggered at will after I realised evil was my evolutionary tool and was utilised with control. Good trips were to enjoy at parties etc.
Alone I would go deep into my mind with LSD bottles emptied and very close to overdose with synthetic cousins of LSD. Through a couple of years I learnt what it is to 'be' god as I knew how to compose this persona. I learnt one's 'miracles' had to keep improving if one was to up hold this divine image, I learnt this is where Jesus went wrong and was crucified, people started to clock my seemingly super human abilities and started to test my abilities. After realising this I couldn't rest until I was ahead again but realising my position I got myself into I was compelled to search deeper and remain on top. It took more hallucinogenics and more deep meditation to realise I couldn't uphold this veneer and was reduced to normality to learn my next lesson. My mind was like a untouchable fortress yet my body wasn't, my brain started to fatigue my body became effortless and unmotivated so I decided to clean up repair the temple which is my body so I could proceed my journey.
I retreated to the only place I could, nature, away from any distractions and live on my survival skills and take a 3 month break from society and its expectations. Hallucinations would occur on will now without need for any drugs I told myself its a reminder of the illusion we live in battling with my fragile body wasn't until 2 months in the wilderness I had experienced my personified god after weeks of hell mentally. He told me my errors what I needed to do and returned my body to full strength with a condition I didn't show off my abilities with universal energy's and didn't use them for ego gain. I returned to my family and friends like a new man unwilling to perform or show anything I learnt unless it was righteous, I remain a open ear for help and a healer for injuries and likewise but now I have a subconscious master guiding me for supreme purpose
now I have a subconscious master guiding me for supreme purpose
Can I say LSD gave me this? No I can say it helped but its nothing you can't achieve with meditation. Some claim I've lost it but I'm still in college still abide fine with standard lifestyles. The question is, is ignorance bliss? Yes but if you want more, total dedication and belief in your path is required its a fine line between insanity and enlightenment make sure you do it within your own boundaries and your own comfort you don't know what is round the corner and you might reject it. LSD and likewise can be addictive mentally not physically.
Glory to thee not to me, Strength with virtue, Victory and Defeat, Peace, Love and Harmony World :)
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