Citation: bunji monkey. "Range of Emotion Was Totally Diminished: An Experience with Armodafinil & Amphetamines (Adderall) (exp92343)". Erowid.org. Jan 21, 2020. erowid.org/exp/92343
2:35pm-- I just took one 250 mg tablet
2:54pm-- I still dont really feel anything, I have started to sweat, and am feeling some tingling in my body, my heartbeat is regular. I am wondering if I should take adderral with it as well but since its my first time I'm just going to see what the effects are alone. I have made several simple errors when writing this report, I feel a bit jittery but I'm not sure if its the nuvigil or just me being excited.
3:27pm- I still cant say that I feel anything. Time seems to be going pretty fast, I have started doing my homework and havent let myself be distracted. I notice that I am making a lot of involuntary mistakes typing, like I push a key without wanting to, weird. I am left handed and pretty dyslexic and I wonder if this is more a left brained drug. I am feeling some stiffness on the left side of my neck. I feel very present, I dont know about focused.
I feel very present, I dont know about focused.
I wonder if this is it or if it hasnt kicked in yet. I'm not sweating any more. Oh, I've also had to urinate a lot.
3:36pm- My heart is starting to beat much more quickly, When I read my eyes jump from place to place.
3:44 pm-- I've decided that if I dont gain focus in the next hour I'm going to take 2.5 mg of adderall.
3:58 pm- My heart rate is 90 bpm wow! I think my heart will burst if I take an adderall.
4:20pm- I have been steadily focused. It is different than adderall because it is not a hyperfocus but a calm interested one. I feel like this is what I want to be working on and it feels rewarding. I am not jittery but my heart is beating rather quickly so that makes me not feel calm and settled. I felt the need for some salt and sugar which I indulged and feel much better for it. 88bpm
4:26p- I just took 2mg of adderall.
4:58pm- its rainy and wet outside, went to the corner store to buy gum- now chewing like crazy. GUM is Necessary! Feel much better now that I'm not locking my jaw or grinding my teeth. Also, I've had a hard time with temperature. I keep getting cold and putting on a sweater and taking it off after I feel like I'm baking. The focus is amazing though. I have been sitting and working without getting involved in texting, IM'ing or anything else that used to distract me. I am not however having clarity in thought or super brain experiences. I am able to write but not better than before or more clearly. Also, I am not in the least bit hungry, I havent eaten any real food since this morning and feel like I should force myself to take a break and eat. Going to do that now. I can help but think about the extent to which I am willing to go to make myself study harder.
5:56pm- I painstakingly ate half of a cup of noodles with tofu. People are not kidding when they say its an apatite suppressant. My heart is beating 101 bpm but much more gently and stable. Have been totally focused and interested in what I'm doing. Drinking lots of water. This drug is a lot like mdma in that I need to be chewing or biting on something. I have an oral fixation so this may exaggerate it. I notice that I dont get locked into one action or activity like on adderall.
8:30pm- I am still not hungry, have an easy time making good decisions, thoughts are very calm and clear, not rushed, very present and involved with what I am doing in the moment. Heart beat is still fast, need to chew on something constantly. I am getting ready to go a party. So far my emotions have been very monotonous so lets see how this thing affects me socially. Will report when I get back.
1:16am- Just got back from the party, didnt drink any alcohol :( It was very hard to eat anything other than fruits and veggies. I still dont feel sleepy and am very focused and calm. I do, however, feel a bit drained, like I dont have anything else to run on but I wanna keep going. My heart beat is 80 bpm- thats kinda normal for some people. I have a lot of gas- I looked on the label and it said that it has lactose in it so that may be why. I had an easy time socializing but my range of emotion was totally diminished. I am ready to feel normal again.
3:34 am- finally able to eat, starting to feel tired so I'm going to sleep.
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