DOSE:

oral

Amphetamines

(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

When I'm on Adderall I have two personalities. I remember trying to tell my friend this who didn't understand. I felt like I had two personalities. There was me without Adderall. Which I guess is the way I am now. Generally bored, relaxed, don't do much, and the Adderall me which was very dilligent ambitious and hard-working. This SUCKS. Fuck adderall for this reason. I don't want to be all the things I wish I could be cause I'm taking some stupid pill. I can't live the rest of my life like this. Since then I've realized that Adderall really is my drug of choice. It's the one I spent the longest time on. Like 3 or 4 years. And it has shaped my personality in a lot of ways. But I love the feeling it gives me when I'm on it, the same feeling I get when I drink coffee. Makes me happy and makes me BUSY. But only for as long as I'm on it.

The point is. Is that I'd rather just be me and not have ever been adderall me, because its a pandora's box, a double edged sword and all that.

[Reported Dose: 10-30 mg Adderall]

Exp Year: 2005-2010	ExpID: 90972
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: May 8, 2018	Views: 1,105
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