Citation: Sprout. "Leaving the Realm Behind: An Experience with Salvia divinorum & Kava (exp89838)". Erowid.org. Feb 3, 2016. erowid.org/exp/89838
I have had many experiences with Salvia divinorum, so it is difficult to select one to share with you. One particular trip does stand out, though.
It was late at night, around 1 AM I think. The house was dark except for a nightlight left on for the kids. I had taken some Kava Wave capsules around midnight to mellow out, hoping it would help me sleep. It did indeed make me mellow, but I was not sleepy. I had a gram of 40X Salvia divinorum extract from an excellent vendor, so I decided I would enjoy some at this time.
I turned on some music by Vas, filled the pipe, and took three successive hits. The initial impact was what I am accustomed too. A drastic loosening of my mind, a profound sense of becoming non-localized in time and space, a bit of anxiety, and powerful bodily sensations. I sat cross legged on the floor and closed my eyes.
Immediately I began to drift into a “place” that I refer to as the Realm of the Shepherdess. It is a fluid world of light pixels, populated by intelligent, but evasive beings. I remember very distinctly a sort of warning in my heart. I sensed that the being I refer to as the Shepherdess was not in a friendly mood. I sensed that she would try to lure me deeply into her world, then strike at me while I was defenseless.
At first, I disregarded this warning and allowed myself to “swim” in this beautiful realm. I lost sense of time, but I think it was a good 10 or 15 minutes before I decided to have 2 more hits. I opened my eyes and filled the bowl, taking two hits, and closed my eyes again. Strange thoughts entered my mind. I can't recall them exactly, but they seemed very ironic and even absurd at the time. It made me laugh. I laughed repeatedly as I sat cross legged, swaying energetically to the beautiful music of Vas.
After a few minutes, I was no longer distracted by my bodily sensations and I traveled deeper into the realm. I saw a great fortress, the door of which was closed. I knew immediately that this was her personal domain. I asked her to show herself to me. I had spoken with her before, but I have never seen her. She refused to show herself, but she invited me in to her domain. I asked how to get in. She replied that two more hits would unlock the door. I almost accepted her invitation, but suddenly the warning I had received earlier entered my mind forcefully.
I almost accepted her invitation, but suddenly the warning I had received earlier entered my mind forcefully.
I considered her proposal more carefully. I wanted to do it. This was my chance to come face to face with a very intelligent being. However, as I gazed upon her fortress, and as I looked around me at the beautiful world of fluid light, a realization that I will never forget hit me. I realized that her realm was so vast, and that I was so finite, that I could easily lose my way in that place. I realized that I would never truly become an expert at navigating that realm unless I used Salvia hundreds of times at least. Quite honestly, I did not want to use Salvia hundreds of times! You see, I was seriously considering giving up drug use at this time. I wanted to try sobriety again. I wanted to have back my relationship with God, who loves me, rather than this evasive, dangerous entity that I was becoming so enthralled with.
I remained indecisive for several minutes, during which time the effect of the drug began to diminish. Eventually I declined her offer and opened my eyes, returning to my body. I sat there for a while longer, swaying to the music, until I felt sober again.
I did end up using Salvia a few days later, but I soon sobered up for a period of about six months.
I think about Salvia divinorum often. I am sickened by the reckless and irreverent use of this sacred plant by so many stupid kids, with their stupid youtube videos. That kind of behavior will get Salvia banned eventually. I really hope that someone in the academic or scientific community conducts a serious study on the spiritual and mental aspects of the Salvia experience, and what this plant reveals about the human consciousness. I hope this happens before Salvia is banned by all fifty states.
I think, though, that I will not use it anymore personally unless I am involved in this type of study. I have a tendency to get carried away with it, sometimes tripping for two hours straight by smoking it continuously during the trip. I don't do this out of irreverence, but because when I am there, I don't want to leave.
I beseech everyone to treat this and other psychedelic plants with the respect they deserve.
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