Citation: steve. "Cautionary Tale: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (10x extract) (exp87164)". Erowid.org. Dec 13, 2019. erowid.org/exp/87164
I have always had a thirst for knowledge and the esoteric world. I bought some x10 salvia off the internet and smoked it on about 15 to 20 occassions. I found that I was able to communicate with 'spirits', of both the living and dead - and 'saw' the transmigration of my soul. What I discovered unhinged me and since then I have been committed to psychiatric hospitals on several occasions - I suggest in our culture some things we are not meant to know or to discover by means not involving drugs / herbs.
Needless to say the psychiatric treatment I received was way off the mark and there was a complete lack of understanding of my state of mind. The 'mental illness' I've suffered from since my experiences has also had a dire effect upon my immediate family. I managed to get myself out of psychiatric hospital by agreeing with the psychiatrists, which pleased them and they released me. I don't think I have 'come down' and have been living in an alternate reality for years now
I don't think I have 'come down' and have been living in an alternate reality for years now
, hearing some of the same spirit voices I heard whilst taking the salvia. Thus, the psychiatrists have labeled me as psychotic with symptoms of schizophrenia.
Ultimately I don't blame salvia, I blame myself for the way I have lived my life. What I am acutely aware of however is that if I did not try the salvia I would not have caused my family so much distress and I would not have ended up in psychiatric hospital. I am also aware that if in my youth I had made the correct moral decisions my salvia experiences would have been very different.
I don't see it as a bad drug, rather myself as having been a bad person. I neither condemn salvia nor recommend it. What I do recommend is living a virtuous life.
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