Consciousness Dissolved... Beyond C1 Receptor
Citation: Psychonautis. "Consciousness Dissolved... Beyond C1 Receptor: An Experience with JWH-018 (exp86899)". Erowid.org. Jul 31, 2015. erowid.org/exp/86899
||(powder / crystals)
||(powder / crystals)
I've been playing with jwh-018 for about a week and a half. The '18' is 99.9% pure in powder form. I've been playing around with the dosing trying to figure out my tolerance. I started the dosing very slowly spanning a few days. Last night, I decided that my '18' voyage didn't go far enough into the cosmos so I smoked and ingested around 30-40mg. I smoked more than I consumed. I don't have a mg scale so I eyeballed it referencing my previous trials. Again like before, tolerance with mild effect. This point was around the hour and half mark.
Around the two hour mark me and my girlfriend got some Chinese food. This was the biggest mistake ever. I had chicken and broccoli (brown sauce) and white rice. Also scarfed down a few pork dumplings. The food was good quality, safe, never had a bad meal from the restaurant. 20 minutes after eating I fell into a void, a place where no one should ever go. I felt like something went really wrong because even at my highest point in the past I never felt this high. My brain dissolved into a nose dive towards an abyss where time felt forever and space was a place of uncertainty. The universe was a closet which we were born into without ever getting to see the outside world...
It was the rice or something in the Chinese food that amplified the effects of '18'. Why I say this is because the same effect happened to me more mildly a few days prior when I ate rice after smoking '18'. This time it was unexpectedly profound...
Going back to the nightmare, I excused myself after the 20min launch. I went to the bedroom with water in hand and I laid down. It was 10:30pm. I was slipping, falling deeper into the rabbit hole. I really thought that my brain was going to shut down, I was so so so so so so fucking high that my soul felt like it was on its way out of my body. I reassured myself that this would pass while making the usual mental promises of never doing this again, please let me live, I'm so stupid, I don't want to die before my time... yadda yadda.
10:35pm and all I want is to get off this ride. So scared... don't want to go farther. But of course, I went farther. All I could do was try to calm down and drink water hoping to flush the chemical out of my body. I drank as much water as possible. I urinated twice within 20 minutes. With each came a 5% reduction.
10:40pm I want to destroy the clock next to the bed. It gave me false hope in thinking that it would end. Every moment was an eternity, every passing minute was a lifetime. I can't close my eyes without feeling the toll of '18'. It held me and wouldn't let go. I couldn't stop rotating my feet, I would look around the room, stare outside the window, stare at the clock, stare at the temp reading on the A.C. The outside world was so foreign, it was a place where I had a feeling of purgatory.
10:50 Enough is enough... my brain is melting. 10:55pm Heart rate and pulse way to high. My chest is going to explode. 11:00pm more water, trying to take my mind off of heart beats. I focused on breathing calmly. 11:10 I'm hoping my girlfriend doesn't come to bed cause I can't stop moving around. I didn't want her to know that I was over the edge with '18'. Didn't want to go to hospital or anything like that. Somewhere I knew I was going to make it. 11:30... The meltdown continued... overall, the feeling of what I was going through was similar to having your body teleported like in Star Trek but not materializing on the other end. 11:35 last time I looked at the clock. I was finally able to fall asleep... really glad.
In the morning, I woke up 6:45am ready to go to work. Everything was surreal, like I was in someone else's body. I got into my car and drove to work. I didn't have any coordination problems. I'm still spacey after 12 hours from the trip. My mind feels like Swiss Cheese. I'm not having difficulty integrating or maintaining thought; however, I'm feeling a little bit of psychosis. 15% percent of my perception of reality is 'out of touch'. The world feels fake and my appreciation for life is greater after almost losing my soul.
My advice... Be Very Very careful. I'm not a novice and I don't shy away from a spiritual journey but '18' is a serpentine hellbent on making you its bitch. You don't have to dose high to get wasted. Try a little with rice or some other carbohydrate.
Respect it and it will respect you.
[Reported Dose: 'one and a half pinky finger nail sized smoked and two sprinkles on under tongue']
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