DOSE:	1 bowl	smoked	Salvia divinorum	(extract)
		smoked	Tobacco

BODY WEIGHT:

165 lb

Salvia - Divine Teacher

I write this article as an offering of gratitude for this precious and benefic plant medicine who has recently showed up in my life to help me remember Truth and to awaken from the dream of time and limitation.

I ordered a gram of 20x salvia after listening to a brief audio by Terrence Mckenna who spoke about it with high regard. I have high regard for Terrence, so I felt like I could trust this plant as an authentic plant teacher.

The night after the package arrived in the mail, I lit a candle at my alter, burned sage, set intentions and packed an apple with a large pinch of the extracted leaf placed atop a small pinch of OG tobacco. I went outside under the moonlight, sitting on a wooden chair, and took a huge rip. After holding it for as long as possible I exhaled and began to take another rip.

This is where things began to change. As I took the second toke, I began to hear close voices speaking “so he wants to have more huh? He’s taking more, he wants this to work huh?” Next thing I knew, I was immersed in another dimension, a 2D fractal world where my body and the fractal-verse were not separate. I had no idea where or who I was any longer. I was terrified. I felt as if I were imprisoned in a cartoon fractal of infinity and I was horrified beyond imagining. I tried to move out of it, to get out of the prison that held my mind and body to no avail.

I began to think I was going to be stuck forever. No thoughts of God, or my Guru, or Jesus helped. I was totally imprisoned and even felt like I was being suffocated. That’s when I noticed I wasn’t even on the wooden chair any more. I was in the sea of ground. Somehow I managed to stumble up, grabbed the chair and stumbled back into our Yurt. Once inside, I called out to my wife who was sleeping. She didn’t hear me, and I knew no one and nothing could help me because I was in a different dimension.

Dear God, this is horrifying. I thought of the internet as a demon, and the website I bought this extract from as the demon, the real Satan. “Oh shit I’ll be stuck like this forever, I’m permanently screwed in the worst hell ever.” Now, I’ve done many ceremonies with Ayahuasca, but nothing was as scary as this. True, Twilight Zone horror, like the episode where the kids get stuck in the wierd cartoon TV.

So, this was like visiting Satan. I stared at the cieling for a while, feeling utterly separate and lost. I managed to sit up and make it to the alter where I began to breathe deeply and listen and manage. I then thought “how can this stuff be legal? How can it be so available right now?” and the answer came “because the plant in in control of all that” and I got scared.

All this fear was the motif. Some entity just kept laughing at me over and over. For all I had ever tried to do, for all my efforts to do good and to be spiritual, it just laughed saying “your a failure, you can’t do anything, you’ll never do anything, ha ha ha “ It was a demonic laugh. And the laugh was everywhere.

Finally I grabbed my guitar and ran back outside and began to play the first song that came to me. Then I played another, then another. I played songs I hadn’t played for years, and then I began to play and sing songs under the stars which I had never heard before. Songs to the angels and spirits of the forests. I began to feel the spirits I was singing to and knew they were being fed by my playing.

I played until I felt good and safe again. Until I realized the power and strange benificence in the plant and the experience. I became aware of the fact that there is only one being. And that is me. And all beings and things in this world are all me. Everything is me, can you imagine? This was intensely liberating, like a huge burden was lifted off of my shoulders. It’s all me communicating with me. Wow. I had read about that concept in so many books and teachings, yet here it was, plain as day, tangible, and real. I could (and still can) feel and know it like… Duh, it was (is) the most obvious thing in the world.

I played and played, and finally came back into the Yurt and meditated for a long while. My mind was very focused and quiet.

Man, I could really write forever about every little thing, but I’ll skip a bunch and get to the point. Basically, I couldn’t figure out what the Demon was. I could still feel the Demon, subtley around me throughout the next days. I could feel ghosts and negative spirits around. I smoked again the next night. I remembered parts of the night before that I hadn’t in “normal consiousness”. I thought “dear god why have I done this again?” because the demon was there laughing at me from everywhere, and the clausterphobia and everything. Same thing though, I played music to the angles and forest spirits and the demon melted into the love of and angelic presence.

So, tonight, I thought I’d do it again to really scope out the demon. I took a big hit after sending my intentions and the demon didn’t show up. It was like He couldn’t show up because the thoughts and prayers coming through me were far to powerful. I just kept praying for the love of the world, for the benefit of all, offering prayers to the angels and forest spirits and all light beings. Instead of a sinking demonic 2D cartoon, the energy of the plant was lifting up up up to the radiant stars. I meditated and prayed. I played and sang with my guitar again.

I truly know this plant is sacred. Thoughts that come through under the influence of Her are dramaticaly amplified. So much so that they immediately affect the so-called 3D matrix we are in. I have known tobacco to do this, and Salvia is like ….. Very powerful plant here at this time to help us.

I feel that the smoking of the extract is not the best way. It’s not so healthy on the lungs and it’s a processed kind of means. I felt intuitive guidance that the traditional way of holding the cigar of leaves in the mouth is the plant prefered method. I ordered some live plants and am eagerly awaiting the continuance of our relationship together, me and Salvia, which is me and God, which is … Me.

I could go on. She showed me that the mind-self of word based thinking is really a small part of who I am. That the higher self is always there to communicate with me and guide me. That everything is perfect as is it always, and my job is to attune and harmonize with what is, to send love and prayer to it all.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 86162
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Nov 22, 2020	Views: 634
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