Awareness and Loss of Everything
4-HO-MET
by bushdoc420
Citation:   bushdoc420. "Awareness and Loss of Everything: An Experience with 4-HO-MET (exp82420)". Erowid.org. Jan 23, 2011. erowid.org/exp/82420

 
DOSE:
50 mg   4-HO-MET

BODY WEIGHT: 100 kg


as i write this i am just thinking that maybe i should't share this much emotion with everyone but here it is:
everything is so stimulating
breathtaking and intresting
this must be the feeling of birth
take me
amazingly colourful
take me
i'm nothing but myself
or are these thoughts just thoughts of an acid trip
is this really happening
or am i going to end
to end
end
everything's dancing
lust is something i dont and havent experienced in 100%
take me
im'myself
why am i writing this
what is the meaning
its just because its fucking niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
colours are just an imagination
everything is just in the mind
amazing
just amazing
is what i set my eyes upon
so whideopening
and liberating
can it really exist?
or is this just a hallusination?
the feeling of becoming one with myself
if that can even be described
is what i am experiensing
complete awereness
im in me
in my mind
this makes sence now
i can even touch the fucking question of existanse
who am i do i exist
does this reality i am tough to live with really exist?
or is it all in the mind?
what you believe in
not what you are tought to but REALLY believe
let it go free
does this make sence to an already tought mind
?
possibly not
i have lost self awereness
everything is new
the touch
everything just comes
everything is like i am doing it for the first time
its raw material to my touch

Exp Year: 2009ExpID: 82420
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 22 
Published: Jan 23, 2011Views: 4,669
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