I Love You and I'm Glad You Exist
LSD
Citation: Baldwin. "I Love You and I'm Glad You Exist: An Experience with LSD (exp81980)". Erowid.org. Sep 16, 2018. erowid.org/exp/81980
DOSE: |
2 tablets | oral | LSD | (blotter / tab) |
1 tablet | oral | LSD | (blotter / tab) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 145 lb |
We took our acid sitting on a bench on campus, two hits each on paper squares about a centimeter square in size. Smiling with excitement, we mounted our bikes and set off for the park, which was about a fifteen-minute ride away. By the time we reached the center of the park, about 25 minutes later, I could feel an incredible feeling in my chest. The only way Evan and I could verbalize it was that we were feeling “potential”. My surroundings gradually started to look more and more colorful and I could see the sun starting to cast alpenglow on Mt. Rainier as we approached sunset. When a deer and a peacock simultaneously approached our group to within 10 feet, sending us into a state of silent awe, I knew we were starting to trip really hard.
We decided to go further into the park as the sun started to set. It was darker in the woods, but we were explorers in a strange land and were unafraid. We sat down in a clearing far off the path, completely surrounded by trees, and took another tab each. I started pouring dirt all over myself because I had realized that there is nothing inherently wrong with being dirty, it’s just a perception we’ve developed living in American society.
We sat down in a clearing far off the path, completely surrounded by trees, and took another tab each. I started pouring dirt all over myself because I had realized that there is nothing inherently wrong with being dirty, it’s just a perception we’ve developed living in American society.
Later that night, when we returned to the dorms, I was coming down but could still feel the effects somewhat. I felt a powerful need to communicate the revelation that I had, that every human being is valuable and deserves to be loved. “The only real sin is harming another human”, I said. I would say to strangers I met, “I don’t know you, but I love and respect you, and I’m glad we exist in the same universe.”
I felt that I had found the key to the archetypal religious experience. I was thoroughly convinced that God resides in our own self-awareness. The thing we’ve been searching for since the dawn of time is really ourselves, we just haven’t realized it yet. I came to terms with how short and insignificant our lives are, and rather than a depressing thought, it was quite comforting to know that my own life is miniscule in comparison with the human race and this planet.
Since this trip I have continued to feel differently. I am much more spiritual than I was before. I can still feel the deep love for every human being and I have adopted as my philosophy the words of a Moody Blues song: “Love everybody and make them your friend.” I have made an effort to treat every person I meet with respect and to make them feel as if I am glad to be with them. While I do not advocate the use of LSD to anyone who is not themselves sure of their desire to use it, I believe it can be a tool to significantly improve one’s life. It is a big decision, but I feel exponentially more mature and wiser since tripping. I’ve stopped drinking and smoking cigarettes, which hold no appeal for me anymore. All in all, my acid experience was among the best things ever to happen to me.
Exp Year: 2009 | ExpID: 81980 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 18 | |
Published: Sep 16, 2018 | Views: 839 |
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