Pharmahuasca (Syrian Rue, B. caapi & DMT)
Citation: peanutbuttajellytime. "Absolutely Insane: An Experience with Pharmahuasca (Syrian Rue, B. caapi & DMT) (exp81670)". Erowid.org. Nov 23, 2017. erowid.org/exp/81670
My background in hallucinogens is quite extensive. Having tried many different psychedelics at high doses including smoking NN DMT multiple times daily for at least a month of my life.
It was a earlier month in the year of 2009 and my friend who I will call F had acquired a milligram scale. I was very excited because we had been sitting on the supplies to make ourselves a dose of pharmahuasca for quite some time. He and I had prepared for the night and planned to have limited interruptions.
F and I weigh out the proportions of the DMT to be 140mg per pill and around 150mg of Banisteriopsis caapi and Peganum harmala. The setting is F's house which is a ranch style home in a neighborhood in the local city. The home has not been remodeled since the 1970's and creates a very trippy vibe. another note to mention is that I had fasted for the previous 24 hours and F had not.
F and I are both very excited to have our first experience on Pharmahuasca be an absolutely crazy experience. We both love to trip and do so together very often at this point in time. The time building up to the trip we both calm ourselves physically and mentally and prepare a mix of light trance and psychedelic music. Once everything is prepared we ingest our two pills that we have put our materials into.
t:0.00 Ingest the two pills previously mentioned
t:20.00 No real effects felt thus far. F and I both feel perhaps we have not eaten enough so we both fill a capsule entirely with NN DMT and swallow it as well.
t:40.00 I feel somewhat sick to my stomach and I am starting to feel anxious. I go to use the restroom at this point.
t:45.00 I am in the bathroom sitting on the toilet and the OEVs begin. I am having a good time and enjoying the trip thus far.
t:55.00 I am still sitting on the toilet and having a hard time grasping what is going on. I am tripping at this point. I would rate it at ++/+++.
t:1.05 I have managed to make it out of the bathroom and into F's room and I lie on his bed. F has yet to start tripping and I believe this was due to my fasting and he had just eaten.
t:1.10 I am tripping hard its getting to be +++ levels. It is at this point that I realize that I am just starting the come up from the first two pills and the third pill probably has not kicked in at this point. I think to myself that this is going to be a ruff night.
t:1.35 I am tripping at what would only be described as ++++. I feel a rush of nausea and decide I need to go to the bathroom. How I put the two together and this point is still unknown to me. I make it to the guest bathroom with great difficulty. I try to open the door and it does not open. I try harder and finally it comes open. F was in the bathroom and the door was locked. I push him out of the way and make it to the toilet. I start vomiting uncontrollably.
t:1.40 I am still vomiting and I am not really making much of the vomit into the toilet. The toilet is contorting into geometric patterns that are familiar with DMT. My vomit appears to be robotic worms of some sort swirling around in the toilet. I keep telling myself its only my mind and I am going to be ok.
t:1.50 I am tripping so hard that I am Freaking out. I am whiting out and truly feeling fear at this point. What have I done? I want this to stop at this point. I fear that I have eaten poison by mistake. F who is still at around a ++ level tells me later that I am convulsing on the floor rolling around in my own vomit. I tell him to make it stop, I tell him that I want this to be over. I ask for some antipsychotic to bring me down. Please F Help me! I ask him if I am dying and his amorphous blob of a figure says no but I sense fear in his voice. I repeat the question, accompanied this time with: Why am I so sick? I think I am dying. I tell F to call my parents and my girlfriend and tell them that I am dying. F repeats this back to me as a question but I cannot understand what noises this thing is making.
During this time I lay on the floor floating in and out of consciousness. It is during this time that the most profound experience comes into play. I am all of the sudden out of my body in a way similar to smoking DMT but more intense. I go out into a black nothingness and I am accompanied by three other beings of unknown descent. We all are sitting with our legs crossed atop our own ball of energy. The seats we were posted on seem to be the hue of a dark reddish orange and the beings were a bluish green hue. All of the objects had the lines of geometric patterns that are associated with smoking DMT. The energy pulses in the objects in front of me and the rest of my field of vie, which was around 270 degrees is pitch black. I communicate with the beings via telepathy and they are very friendly and intelligent beyond my miniscule levels of comprehension. The beings start streaming knowledge into my mind. Memories of things past that are very clear and understandable. I watch through their eyes as the universe is created and the evolution of planets. Not only planets I know but ones I do not with species that I have never seen or imagined. I wonder what all of this means. Not having any faith in deities of any sort, I wonder if thatís what these creatures are. Whatever these unknown entities are, they are superior to humans by unknown orders of magnitude.
After I am with them for what seems like an eternity, the beings bid farewell and I am sent hurdling back down to earth. I am not sent back to F's Bathroom. Rather, I arrive at a temple that seems Mayan, Aztec, and Incan in origin. The structure is made of energy rather than stone. Similar in design to the aforementioned energy balls that the unknown beings and I rested upon. I approach the temple and there are guards made of energy similar to that of the balls. The guards seem to be ~20 feet tall and dressed as Incan warriors with square heads and large ears with large hoops inside the lobe. The guards have strange spear/sword weapons I have never seen before. I try to pass the guards and they stop me. They communicate with me telepathically just as the beings from before had. However, the tone these creatures use is not friendly. The leader of the guards tells me that I cannot enter the temple yet. The temple contained all knowledge and I would not understand it. He also said that once I entered the temple that I could never return to where I had come from.
t:2.45 I come to and F is standing over me. I am somewhat scared and I ask him what the fuck is going on. He smiles lightly and says your tripping real hard and laughs.
t:2.50 F convinces me that I am fine and coaxes me to change from my vomit covered clothes and come out to the living room.
t:2.55 I have a moment lasting around 10 minutes where my head is completely clear and I tell F what I saw. We go outside and smoke a cigarette and return inside because of the cold weather outside.
t:3.05 I start tripping wildly again but I maintain consciousness and talk to F during this part of trip. I am still lost at this point and ask F to explain to me what I am and lots of other questions concerning human activity. F is starting to approach the level I was experiencing earlier so he does not respond much, rather stares at his pants for the next ~60 minutes.
t:4.05 At this point I am around a +++ and I am enjoying myself as compared to what has just happened. I listen to music and watch cartoons.
t6.40 The trip is dwindling down and I feel tired. I go to sleep and wake up the next day with no ill effects on my body other than a completely confused mind.
In conclusion: This was the scariest experience I have ever had in my life but I survived with a great story to tell. Had F not been there to help me I think it could have been much worse. Always have a friend and a safe environment!
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