Citation: HippiexChild. "Locked away from the World: An Experience with DXM (with CPM) (exp81308)". Erowid.org. Aug 29, 2011. erowid.org/exp/81308
Most Coricidin contains CPM (Chlorpheniramine Maleate) which can be dangerous in high doses. See DXM Brand Warnings for more info.]
To give you a little background, I'm 20 years old and I am currently a recovering drug addict. In the town I live in, You either do drugs or you have no friends more than likely.
All through school I was the guy who was picked on, The person everyone messed with to get kicks out of. I was also the one that had many problems going through school.
When I was about 16, I started trying to hang out with the popular crowd and fit in. To be honest, I didn't know what I was getting into at the time.
It all started with Weed. I would go out on the weekends, meet new people and end up getting high with them. At the time, this was fun and every experience I had reformed the way I thought about life in general.
Shortly, I was introduced to pills. DXM was the first drug I had taken. In my town, There was a pill known as a skittle. It had DXM and the extra ingrediant CPM. I loved it. It was unlike anything I had ever felt or known. IT gave me a false sense I was the most popular guy on streets and that all the girls liked me.
After the DXM incident, I started trying other psychadelics. DMT, Saliva, and 2C-B. [Just to name a few.] But none of them was anything compared to DXM. I soon fell ill into addiction. I would take DXM many times with friends,family, and soon after that I started mixing DXM with many kinds of different drugs and chemicals.
I would fight on the weekends with anyone who looked at me the wrong way only because I wanted everyone to think I was a badass. DXM helped me do this. I wanted all the girls to like me so I would call many of them while I was tripping and make plans with them.
It wouldn't get any worse than that till my ex-girlfriend passed away. I would call her at night, she would know that I was messed up, and she would cry because she didn't want me to be doing drugs. I always told her everything would be okay, that I would eventually stop. I thought I had all the time in the world to stop doing drugs... But sometimes life doesn't do what you want it to do.
After she passed, I couldn't even attend the funeral. Instead, I'm at the house high off of DXM, Mushrooms, And Weed. I remember it very well but I don't. In the months to come, I would stay locked inside my own head away from reality because I couldn't bear the thought of my loved one being dead. She was like my dream girl. And now, she was gone forever. Anything that could get me high, I would do it. I was never sober. Not even on Christmas.
I hid this from my family really well. It might have crossed their minds from time to time when they found my secret stash or something, or when I got arrested many times for drugs. Also, I would have bad trips sometimes because I might see a picture of my ex-girlfriend and it would ruin everything. But I would be alright in a half hour or so because I would take more DXM.
This went on for almost a year, then I met this girl that looked just like my ex in every way that was possible. She also accepted me for who I was. The addiction would get worse. I even overdosed once. She didn't really mind me getting high, But she didn't like it either. She told me she loved me and she would never leave me. Alot of stuff happened in that relationship I'm not going to go into. She eventually left me and had a restraining order put on me because the DXM had driven me crazy to the point I was making plans to kill other people.
After I got out the mental hospital, I started back doing DXM. By this time, I'm taking over 1000MGs of DXM, daily, to get high and actually have a good trip. This went on for another year, and then I fell in love with opiates.
But, This didn't go on too long for I now started to see I had a problem. I saught help. I met this really great doctor. He prescribed me suboxone. I also have to go to a drug addiction group on thursdays. I don't mind it honestly. I lost all my popularity and all my so called friends. They never come around anymore since I've been clean. I'm currently in college and as a matter of fact, I'm almost through. I realize that my family will be there for me no matter what. And they have.
I haven't dated since my ex, Which has been 2 years almost. I don't want to get into another relationship like that again.
I am doing better and I am looking forward to a better tomorrow. But I will never forget about how I got addicted to DXM. DXM is powerful mentally and physically. Anyone who reads this, I give you a warning. If you are going to recreationally use DXM, Only use products with DXM in low-moderate doses. Slow down if you start to use too much, too often. Anyone can be a be a victim to addiction. Don't ever say it won't happen to you, because you never know what your life has in store for you.
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