Citation: Dougal. "Don't Get Silly: An Experience with Cocaine (exp7963)". Erowid.org. Feb 27, 2004. erowid.org/exp/7963
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Reading many of the other submissions on this drug it seems that many people are severely addicted to coke. I've been taking coke on a party basis for about 5 years now, and I am definitely not addicted in the way described in many reports. Most of my friends do the same and none of them have any chronic addiction problems either.
How does it make me feel? I guess 'stimulated' is the answer. In a party situation when I'm drunk on alcohol it perks me up, helps me talk shit and keeps the party swinging. If I take it on my own I feel edgy, irritable and a bit sick. I do get some waves of pleasure but also very tense.
I guess I can see where the addiction might start. Once I've started on it, I can't stop until it is all gone, even if this involves lying to mates and keeping some back or secretly doing it when I get back from a club - pretending to do to the toilet to do it. However, the next day I feel like I never want to take it again. My head feels like my scalp has shrunk 2 sizes and my nose feels broken.
An for me, this is the problem. Because although I sincerely never want to do it again...as sure as night follows day....I do. This is not a rabid craving but a more subtle, social addiction. I've just go used to taking coke at a party and don't like the idea of drinking all night without it (or mayb an E or two). What pisses me off is that it's £50 - £100 for a night that isn't any better than when I don't drink. We (my friends and I) say we don't need it but if the dealer fails to turn up you should see the long faces - only for the sombre mood to turn to hilarity and joy when a mobile phone call signals a last minute reprieve. I think we are growing out of it now.
I have overdone it once - snorting most of a really strong gram. I passed out and had TREMENDOUS chest pains and crazy heartbeat. My vision went down to a tunnel and I started to pray. Used 'wisely' (hah!) I guess it can add to a night out but with all social drugs, you want to ask what your real motives are for doing it. I believe the answer is normally related to confidence.
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