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Letter to Myself
by Bryan E
Citation:   Bryan E. "Letter to Myself: An Experience with Cocaine (exp78654)". Sep 18, 2018.

  insufflated Cocaine



When Iím doing it and having fun
Iíve got no shame
Call it what you want but itís still cocaine

Nose candy, Coke, Powder or Blow
No partyís going on
Like the one in your nose

I could get it anytime so I felt kinda lucky
It was a phone call away and a little bit of money

When I was introduced
I was told two rules,
Never do it alone
And control it, donít let it rule you.

I asked, ďWhat about you, you do it everydayĒ
He said, ďDonít do as I do boy, just do as I say!Ē

I kinda got pissed, wanted to holler and shout
Now 8 months later I feel what he was talking about

Cause when it puts you 6 feet under it wonít even remember your name.
Youíre just another weak bitch,
That itís claimed

But I told myself ďI got thisĒ......Just a little at a time
Just one or two.....hell, thatíll be fine.
But let me promise you this, When you do one line
Getting more and more takes over your mind
One turns to four, and four turns to eight
My heartís beating fast and Iíve got a headache
Now eight lines wonít do, it just wonít get me by,
So I do a little more, chasing that high

So now Iím 3 beats away from a flat line
I did what I did, so now I got mine
But if things could be different as I look back
Iíd promise you baby, Iíd start from scratch.

Now itís 3:00 am and Iím trying to rest.
My heart finally slowed down, 120 at best!

Bryan E. 1-30-2006

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 78654
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Sep 18, 2018Views: 760
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Cocaine (13) : Poetry (43), Retrospective / Summary (11), Unknown Context (20)

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