Citation: schizotoxicapocalyps. "Serpent of Light and the Meditating Godhead: An Experience with DMT (exp78454)". Erowid.org. Apr 22, 2021. erowid.org/exp/78454
I found someone who had DMT after researching it and got some on a Friday night. I experienced enlightenment....
This has had tremendous impact on my life. From my memory, here it goes.
I loaded half a bowl of cannabis and piled some DMT out of the 100mg bag I bought on top of it. I sat on my bed meditation style and pretty much tried to finish it in a few hits that I held in for a few seconds each. I donít think I finished it all; I would say it was probably the night I put half the 100mg bag on top of the bowl.
When it came on I put the pipe down and Iím not sure what happened before I closed my eyes and started meditating. As soon as I closed my eyes I saw white light in the lower part of my inner vision, and then I realized it was rising and it was at that moment that I thought of the Kundalini serpent and I saw in the side of my inner vision a Serpent of Light reaching out from my body to come back through. All of the sudden my whole body was full of white light and I perceived it radiating down my spinal cord. Immediately I was engulfed in this light, and it took the form of a Meditating Being. I perceived it as being behind me while I was engulfed in it and could see darkness off in the boundaries. I associate this with the meditating Godhead.
I had a few DMT experiences during a couple week span, then took a break and couldnít get it anymore when I tried again. The kid went to study abroad in France. This one was probably the most profound and I felt connected with the Source of our experience. On other occasions, I simply got immersion into my surrounding environment, sort of out-of-body but still connected. However, it felt as if I could shift my consciousness into surrounding objects and look back at myself if I could detach. I did lose complete sense of my body; I do remember that. I remember being able to spin my environment around me as it became some colorful field of energy. During the come up and come down, things seem to have a crystal like appearance and everything is very alien. I can perceive the subtle language of my soul, which I canít really explain. Just some sound of definite communication ; beeping is probably the closest thing to describe to I can think of, but it doesnít sound like beeping at all. This language and some indescribable symbology arises in the mind vision. I remember speaking in tongues randomly and symbols were pouring out of my mouth in waves of colorful energy. It was awesome.
A few weeks ago I tried snorting yopo seeds and that was scary and I came away with the feeling that I had to act according to the moral conditioning I have received from God if I wanted to see the people in my life be saved. This was pretty much insanity, but maybe there is meaning to it; maybe it is the key to universalism. Some are called and some are not. The ones who are have the duty of rescuing others through the righteousness of their own actions. My belief in God makes me odd and it has really made me feel at odds with the rest; this is the main obstacle to overcome. Feeling isolated and separated is spiritual insanity when you should strive for spiritual sanity. EVERYTHING IS ONE. YOU WOULD NOT BE WHO YOU ARE WITHOUT THOSE IN YOUR AWARENESS. THEY ARE PART OF YOU.
I donít think I deserved to be revealed my Buddha hood. I donít know whether to consider it an act of cheating or to accept it as something that will happen eventually, revealed to motivate me to work towards it. If these plants are here and available, I see no reason not to experiment with them. JUST REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE TREADING ON SACRED GROUND.
I want to believe in this awakening state of consciousness and I want to do more DMT. Iím never snorting yopo again though. This experience has had mixed impacts on my life for I am confused as to which way I should go spiritually. I am confused about my ego a lotósexually, emotionally, etc. I contemplated the idea of extradimensional beings, although Iíve only experience entities on Salvia, not DMT. But what if I was possessed by something that manipulated me spiritually?
Iíve come to the conclusion that I only believe the beings to be teachings that are part of you, and that is exactly what my enlightenment experience was as well. I have been exploring Shambhala a little lately and this kind of stuff fits the philosophy for sure. I should work towards that rewarding state of being now that I have been prematurely rewarded. I see myself as more of a Christian mystic, with a monotheistic and monistic philosophy, than a I see myself as a Buddhist. But I guess Iím both, and a student of both. I just think Christ completes the picture, in the sense of Theosis, not whacky Christian fundamentalist bullshit. It is about redemption from anger, depression and sin, and the acceptance of Godís love for you. Ultimately, my spirituality is based upon UNITING WITH GOD.
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