Citation: Uwe. "Tossed Into Depression: An Experience with Amphetamines (exp75573)". Erowid.org. Aug 30, 2018. erowid.org/exp/75573
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I am a 25 year old male studying in Germany. I have had a somewhat depressive phase about five years back but am really satisfied with the life I live at the moment and did not have serious cases of emotional unbalances ever since.
I am curious about psychoactive substances since I was a teen and tried most of the classics at least once (Cannabis, Mushrooms, LSD, MDMA, N2O) and never had a bad experience. Difficult, yes. But never lasting.
A friend of mine left me three 10 mg Adderall XR capsules for studying purposes. They have been lying around for about half a year. Tried one and didn’t really feel any effects.
So about a month ago I decided to try the other two. This time I crushed the little balls and put the powder back into the capsule- by this the extended release should be avoided and if I am not mistaken I took a single dose of about 40 mg Amphetamines. I did this around 2 am before going to a psy trance party. At first I didnt feel any effects, but after a while I was “really there”. Good mood, dancing, good music, nice people, talkative beyond believe.
After about four hours I got bored but was still a little too awake to leave the party. So I started drinking and it definetly gave the party another boost. I dont remember how much. Quite a bit I guess, but not excessive.
Left the party when they turned of the music about 1 pm on Sunday. Went home had a little chat with my roomate and went to bed. Slept four hours and spent the rest of the day with tv and chatting with friends.
When I went to bed out of the blue I had an anxiety attac. I literally jumped out of my bed before I knew what I was doing.
This was four weeks ago and I am still not back to what I was like before. Anxiety, feeling of loneliness and fear got less, but still is very present. I am considering therapy at the moment.
I am not saying Adderall is the reason for how I feel at the moment, but it definatly triggered my overly emotional stage. I had never expected this from Amphetamines, since I never had this problems when experiementing with LSD or MDMA. Especially on the first time and only one night of sleep depriviation.
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