Citation: c23Roguero. "I'm Not a Junkie Anymore: An Experience with Buprenorphine / Naloxone (Suboxone) (exp73117)". Erowid.org. Jun 5, 2019. erowid.org/exp/73117
Well my story might start off like many others... Typical high school kid just graduating trying to figure out what he wants to do in life.... Partying... Not givin to much a care in the world. Starts off with pot and drinking... Then moves on the the more hardcore shit. Finally having heroin and oxys and anything I could crush and snort.
This all happening just a couple months after I graduated from school.... Lets just say my life slowly went downhill and a shadow was cast over me becoming darker and darker. My life literally turned in me waking up in the morning and trying to lie a way into gettin enough cash to get my fix. Finally turning into the selling on mine and others things... I became what I hated most. That was my life as I knew it, if thats what u wanna call a life...
Finally 5 years later, after burning all my bridges, losing most of my family, friends, girlfriends, and everything under the sun that was actually meaningful to me, I decided this is not the social-lite, the human spirit my mom and dad strived to bring up from the poor streets of the Milwaukee south side (they worked hard for over 25 years to put our family into a nice quiet suburban neighborhood where we could strive to become something) and I was ruining my chances. So I went online looking around for treatment centers
I went online looking around for treatment centers
and stumbled upon the saboxon's. Let me tell you that this drug has more than saved my life. I literally had nothing but the clothes on my back when I went into treatment and one last chance from my parents, and I came out with more than hope and treatment.
Yes the orange pill tastes fukin terrible but really I've tasted the 'drips' from things far worse and useless. When I take this pill the pain the worryness and the troubles are lifted from my shoulders. I feel 100% better. I feel like I can actually do something with my life other than being a fukin loser junkie. Now I meet with my doctor and counselor very regularly and its been the best thing thats ever happened to me, I feel this sense of entitlement, like now I can help others who need help.
Its now 5 months later and I have a full time job I'm a student and I moved out into a very nice suburban neighborhood with my girlfriend last month. Now I'm not going to lie to you yes I get those party thoughts (not cravings!) every now and then and yes I havent been a perfect angel, I've slipped up a couple times (actually only twice, and that was because I got in a stupid fight with my girlfriend and didnt know how to handle my agression in a well thought out manner). But seriously when I take suboxon I have to want to stop doing dope, otherwise I'm just wasting my time. Unlike methadone I dont get all super high on this drug, it just helps to stop my addiction... It saved me :)
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