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Deppression Came After My Long Term Use
MDMA
Citation:   maxwe11. "Deppression Came After My Long Term Use: An Experience with MDMA (exp72884)". Erowid.org. Dec 5, 2018. erowid.org/exp/72884

 
DOSE:
  repeated oral MDMA
BODY WEIGHT: 11 st
medium/long term MDMA usage

I took ecstasy/MDMA powder virtually every weekend between December 2001 and December 2007. By 2007 I was
just living from weekend to weekend; I was still functioning during the week in work, but in a kind of haze.

For the New Year I decided to give ecstasy/MDMA up for a while to see what happened. I sank into a horrible depression
throughout Jan/Feb/Mar, even worse than the one-day blues on Tuesday to which I had become accustomed over the past 6 years.

During March however, it lifted. I re-discovered my interest in world affairs, decided on going back to university... then in
June, I took an ecstasy pill at my friends birthday party. I didn't feel too bad the week after. I then took another pill
the following week. Again, no significant hangover. Three weeks ago, I was at a festival and took a gram of MDMA powder over the two days. I'm still in the throes of a nasty depression. I've been having severe doubts about how I will succeed at university,
long periods of feeling sorry for myself... this time I know though that it's just the depression making me think like this, and that it will lift in a few weeks. I've decided to cut the drug out altogether. It makes me feel great while I'm on it, but the depression definitely sneaks up on me without me realising.

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 72884
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Dec 5, 2018Views: 788
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MDMA (3) : Retrospective / Summary (11), Difficult Experiences (5), Depression (15), Hangover / Days After (46), Post Trip Problems (8), Not Applicable (38)

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