Citation: Dee . "A Tiring Journey: An Experience with Amphetamines (exp70396)". Erowid.org. Jun 7, 2018. erowid.org/exp/70396
I am a college junior who decided to use Adderall in order to help study for two tests. I had never used Adderall before, but had experienced other ADD medications such as Ritalin as well as a variety of other drugs. I had obtained the pills from a friend who has a prescription.
I began by taking one 20mg pill at 2PM and decided that I would watch TV for a half hour then get to work. Around 2:30 I started doing homework and studying for my exam and still felt completely normal. After about an hour, and not really feeling any effects, I took another 20mg pill.
About 30 minutes after taking my second pill, I was in the zone so to speak. I was doing work very efficiently and all the typical thoughts that usually distract me while doing school work were no where to be found. From this time until about 6PM I was in a state of productive euphoria. That is the only way I can describe it.
At 5PM I went to go eat dinner. I was not hungry at all but ate a little bit anyway. I figured that this loss of appetite was due to the Adderall, so I was aware that I should at least try to eat something. After dinner, I came home and it was about 6PM. At this point I took a 3rd 20mg pill. I worked furiously throughout the night until 10PM. At this point I went to the library to talk with some friends and I really just felt great.
I felt happy, in control of the world, and as if none of the usual things that bother me could get in the way. I honestly, had no worries left, and it was one of the most uplifting feelings of my life.
I returned home at midnight, and was planning on going to bed, completely ignorant of the awaiting hell. I spoke with one of my roommates about religion and spirituality for awhile. We got into a really good debate. At 1:30AM I got ready for bed and laid down.
For the next 6 and a half hours, I experienced one of the single worst things in my life. I laid in bed, and every single thought and concern that had been put off during the day came back into my mind all at once. I starting worrying about so many different things, and ran through tons of scenarios, trying to figure out how to handle them if they came true. I found myself role playing situations that I foresaw possibly happening in the upcoming days. The amazing thing about all of this is that the time flew by. I would check my phone to see the time, and realize that a half hour or hour had passed by when I thought it had been a matter of minutes.
As I went through this emotional turmoil I was at first nervous, but then calm. I still felt control of life because every concern that came up I was able to reach a solution for.
Around 7AM my alarm clock went off signaling that I should start getting ready for the day. When I got out of my bed, I did not feel well. I was a little light headed and very shaky. As I showered, it got worse and worse. I had showered and gotten ready in about 15 minutes, when it typically takes me 45. I was jittery as I waited for it to be time for me to leave for me 8am class.
Once I made it to that class, I was a physically wreck. I tried as hard as I could to stop shaking but simply could not. At the same time though, I was completely enveloped by the classroom and the professor. I had never paid so much attention to this class before. During the next two classes I had exams, which was the reason I had taken this drug in the first place. I did extremely well on both of them, and worked very efficiently.
It was now 12PM (noon) and I had been awake for approximately 27 hours. I went home, had nothing else necessary for me to do for the day, and much to my surprise, I was not even close to being tired. I did homework for the next 3 hours without any hesitation or interruption.
As the day continued, I was nowhere near as physically affected anymore. I had stopped feeling jittery and was relatively normal. I still was not even close to hungry, and tried to eat a piece of chicken and drink a beer, but it was difficult because my stomach simply did not want it.
From about 7PM until 10PM I felt like myself, nothing out of the ordinary. From 10PM until 11PM, however, I felt myself getting extremely tired. By 11:30PM, I had passed out, sleeping until 9AM the next day.
Overall, the experience is one that I am glad to have gone through, but I do not want to do it again. Even though I was extremely productive and functional through it all, the turmoil I experienced during the first night, where I tried to go to sleep was something that I never want to have to go through again. I will probably continue to use Adderall, but never in such a large dose.
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