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Was It Really a Bad Trip?
LSD & MDMA (Ecstasy)
by Ettie
Citation:   Ettie. "Was It Really a Bad Trip?: An Experience with LSD & MDMA (Ecstasy) (exp67013)". Erowid.org. Jun 27, 2018. erowid.org/exp/67013

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
1 hit oral LSD
  T+ 1:00 1 hit oral LSD
  T+ 1:00 1 tablet oral MDMA

BODY WEIGHT: 59 kg


For my New Years eve I wanted to make it something to remember. I was fifteen at the time and dating an LSD dealer who I will call (M). For our new years we decided to go to an outdoor rave several hours drive from our home city, my friend who I will call (D) came along with us. At this point I had taken LSD twice in my life, each time only taking one tab, and I had never taken Ecstasy before.

After we had set up our tent in the rain, we decided to have a look around the different zones and wait until it started getting dark before getting our party on. At around 7pm we headed back to our car and me and (M) took one tab of LSD each, and (D) took 2 BZP pills. We then headed off to a hard dance tent and waited for the stuff to kick in. After about half an hour I started noticing the effect of the acid, the lights twinkling more, dancing felt amazing and I had a huge grin on my face. I had begun to feel a little disorientated so (stupidly) said to (D) “Hey I think we should head back to the car and take the rest of the stuff before I get too fucked to find my way around', so we found (M) and walked back to the car.

Once we got back to the car it had gotten quite dark and was raining. At about 8.00pm me and (M) took a second tab of LSD and an Ecstasy. While sitting in the car I noticed I had begun tripping quite hard, the broken glowstick on the bonnet on the car was about the funniest thing ever, all three of us were in stitches laughing at it, and then (M) and (D) pouring water from one bottle into another made me fall off my seat in hysterics (not to mention confuse the hell out of me).

About 30mins after taking the second tab and the E, we started walking back to the dancefloor, I was holding (M)'s hand and ranting about everything that came into my head, I then noticed I was squeezing his hand very hard and squishing it around in my hand- and it felt so good! I grinned at him as we entered the dancefloor.

On the dancefloor it was raining hard, there were about 150 people there and what seemed like A LOT of flashing lights, I was dancing with (M) quite happily for about 10mins, but then started to feel really weird, like liquid... and was also feeling very loved up. I started telling (M) that I loved him so much, I loved this place, I love dancing, I loved the music, I loved how I felt... I began to feel every drop of rain that hit my skin, and the lights and music became very overwhelming. From about this point I don't really remember much for the next 6 or so hours. What I will tell from now on is what (M) and (D) remember as they tried to look after me.

After my banter about how loved up I was, I wandered to the side of the dancefloor near the forest and fell onto my hands and knees, grasping the mud and grass and then putting some into my mouth. (M) went and found (D) and they lifted me up off the ground and walked be between them away from the dancefloor. We had to stop at every muddy puddle for me to have a barefooted stomp in. When (M) went off to find some help for me, (D) stayed with me beside a car, I remember hugging her and telling her that I loved her, and then started biting her neck until she pushed me away. When (M) came back we started walking back to our tent, I can remember holding (D)'s hand and saying over and over to her 'We're melting together!! We are becoming one!!' as I grasped her arm very hard and dug my nails into her.

Once we got back into the tent, they decided I needed a drink, so tried to pour water into my mouth which I dribbled all over my chin and down my front (i can vaguely remember this feeling really amazing) then they decided maybe if they got (M) to put it from his mouth into mine I would drink, which just resulted in him getting his tongue bitten.

At some point I started screaming random stuff like 'I can talk... I can scream!!!' (I can remember feeling as though I had discovered myself, or had just been born and was finding all this stuff out about myself
I can remember feeling as though I had discovered myself, or had just been born and was finding all this stuff out about myself
). When I had stopped screaming I started having a fairly normal conversation with (M) and (D) about things such as sports and school when I told them that I need the toilet... so (D) took my outside and took my tights, skirt and underwear off, as I lay on the ground trying to kick her. Once she had managed to get my clothes off I kicked her quite hard and crawled/ran off away from her and collapsed into the muddy grass and started shovelling the grass and mud into my mouth and with the other hand was masturbating.

Eventually (M) and (D) got me back inside and put a pair of boxers on me and tried to hold me down, I managed to take the boxers off myself and started telling (M) to fuck me... but at the same time violently bit and scratched both of them. This carried on for about 20mins, and then would cease as I lay motionless on the floor of the tent talking to myself.

At this point where I was talking to myself, I can very vividly remember walking around the rave site with (M) and (D) saying things to them like 'Is everyone tripping out like me?, Are they all feeling like this?' and I remember trying to figure out what was happening, and eventually I 'figured out' that we were all playing this giant game, and that (M) and (D) were in on the secret, but I was clever and had just figured it out I told them this, and then can remember (M) saying 'And she gets it....' But according to my friends, all these conversations I had with them was really just with myself talking as me and as both of them as I lay on the floor of a dark tent. At one point over the night, I urinated on my friend as she tried to hold me down, this really just goes to show exactly how little control I had over myself.

Over the course of the 6 or so hours I went through 3 different personalities that my friends described to me.
Over the course of the 6 or so hours I went through 3 different personalities that my friends described to me.
One was semi-normal where I would sit up and have normal conversations and be calm, just talking about everyday life. One was quite violent, I would scream, try hurt both of them, masturbate, yell at them to fuck me and try rip the tent down. And the other I would just lie down and keep talking to myself and twitching.

When I had calmed down a little, (D) went back to the dancefloor and (M) lay with me, I can remember waking up... feeling very confused, very sick, very sore and felt very 'empty', like I had no emotions left. (M) looked at me and smiled, he looked very tired. I smiled back at him and went back to sleep. Once it had gotten light I woke up, hearing (M) and (D) talking, I crawled out of the tent and looked around, seeing my clothes scattered around the tent. At this point (M) and (D) told me all about what had happened...

I now know what a stupid fucking idea this whole experience was, I warn everyone to not ever try something like this. I don't blame anyone but myself for this. If you ever think of candyflipping then make sure you know the effects of both drugs and you know how to handle it. And dont ever take too much!!

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 67013
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jun 27, 2018Views: 1,034
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