Citation: Jacko. "Horrible Panic Attack: An Experience with Cannabis (exp66556)". Erowid.org. Feb 10, 2017. erowid.org/exp/66556
I started smoking weed about 4 months ago. I am a regular once a week smoker. Occasionally twice a week.
My second bad weed experience (first was just some bad paranoia which I got my first time smoking) happened about one month ago. I had just got some bad news and was feeling incredibly down. I decided to smoke a bowl of weed to make myself feel a bit better.
On my third hit, I started coughing pretty bad. I then threw up on my floor a little bit from the coughing. I took the hits pretty slowly, and by the time I had started throwing up, I was so blasted that I questioned if I actually just threw up or not. I have a kind of reverse tolerance it seems, every time I smoke I get more high than the last time, yet my dealer and amount I smoke seems to be consistent.
After I cleaned it up a bit, I got on my computer to listen to music, maybe watch some trippy music videos.
I turned on Schism by Tool. Schism was 2 minutes in when I got a feeling which can only be described as 'my teeth being cold'. My teeth felt incredibly cold. They felt like they weren't part of my body. They had seemed to turn into a type of energy.
Then I became aware of a connection between my teeth and my heart. The faster my heart beat, the colder my teeth felt. It was a very painful type of cold. I felt pain in my mouth, and the pain had went from my teeth to my heart. Like they were connected by a line.
I told myself that I was high, and that weed does not hurt people. It was all in my head. I tried to ignore it, but it was getting worse. I put up what seemed like a good fight with it for what seemed a long time (But Schism never finished playing.) I gave up and went to go lay down in my bed.
From this point it got worse. My chest was tightening, and the 'teeth pain' was far worse. I closed my eyes and prayed for the trip to end. My Dog attempted to comfort me, but I barely noticed him. I pet him for a second then was back in my own world. I'm only 17, so I ruled out a heart attack, but something was happening. Something bad. I thought this to myself, and as I finished thinking it, another thought in my head, in someone else's voice, but still clearly my thoughts said that there was a problem worse than any I had thought of up to that point.
Since I had already considered heart attack, being told that it was worse was not a nice thing to hear. I thought to myself, 'whats worse than a heart attack' and I thought I was dying. Not nice to think I was dying, and what was worse, the voice returned to tell me that the problem was even worse than that.
Worse than dying? The only thing that made sense was that I was already dead. I honestly believed I was already dead. The voice returned a 3rd time to inform me that 'I was thinking far too small scale' and that the problem was the worst thing imaginable. For about 5 seconds, I was convinced that the entire Universe was destroyed
For about 5 seconds, I was convinced that the entire Universe was destroyed
, and that nothing at all was alive or existed anymore.
I does seem silly to believe such a thing, but at the time, it was easily the scariest thing I had ever thought about in my entire life, and was scared shitless. Shortly after having this thought I fell asleep. I woke up later to go tell of my tale of woe on a forum, and someone with a similar experience that they had WHILE NOT HIGH told me it was a panic attack. Wikipedia confirmed this theory for me.
So far I have yet to have another panic attack, but while high or not, I am in a constant fear of having one again. Every time my heart beats faster, or my chest tightens I think I'm going to experience it again.
I have not quit weed, and don't plan to because of this, because I think if I do develop a problem with panic attacks, it won't be weed related. But I imagine the weed certainly amplified these effects.
Good thing every other weed experience Ive had is JUST FREAKIN' AWESOME :)
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