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Encapsulated Enthusiasm
Modafinil
by Quornix
Citation:   Quornix. "Encapsulated Enthusiasm: An Experience with Modafinil (exp65895)". Erowid.org. Mar 22, 2020. erowid.org/exp/65895

 
DOSE:
200 mg oral Modafinil (daily)
    oral Pharms - Quetiapine (daily)
    oral Pharms - Bupropion (daily)
    oral Pharms - Lamotrigine (daily)

BODY WEIGHT: 350 lb


This is not about recreational use of Provigil (although now I feel like I've got to at least _try_ a quad dose -- the fact that I haven't is actually a surprising statement as to its effectiveness for me), but actual by-the-book prescription use.

At 31, I have lived the life of the classic underachiever. IQ over 145, middling grades in high school (100+ on tests, 0 on homework), and 'does not live up to potential' on every report card since second grade. In and out of college four times with all the coursework for a math major, and thirty credit hours short of graduation. Only held one job for more than a year, almost exclusively due to attendance issues. Like I said, classic underachiever.

I've taken most drugs at least once, with a strong preference for cannabis and psychedelics, although as a strong introvert, my supply has been spotty at best, so I've taken a lot of DXM to fill in the gaps. I've been diagnosed with sleep apnea, hypomanic bipolar, and ADD (although in reverse order). I am currently taking Seroquel, Wellbutrin, and Lamictal, and have most recently been prescribed Provigil. I was looking for more information than available on Wikipedia, and found an article here, and I couldn't think of anywhere better to post my testimonial.

First of all, I've had no side effects, although since I'm taking the Seroquel as much to combat mild insomnia as much as anything, I can't say how it really effects my sleep. Of course, since I haven't taken my night meds tonight, and it's four in the morning, and I still feel alert even after getting into a normal sleep cycle, I'd say that it probably does have some effect there. No noticeable jitters or anything like that.

As has been posted before online, there is a moderate appetite suppressant effect, but that's simply moved me into eating three moderate meals a day. In fact, I'd describe it as an appetite regulator -- I get hungry at the right times, rather than long gaps and huge meals.

Given that (and what's not to like about no side effects).... this stuff is amazing.

Of course, experiences will vary, but I'm basically ON. Many people have mentioned an immediate effect, but for me there has been a noticeable build up. At a week, it's pretty quick compared to many prescription meds, but I did not notice an immediate lifting of my energy level. However, once it really hit properly, it has been phenomenal.

I've taken coke, and taken heavy doses of Ritalin and ephedrine, but I've never really cared for them. They've produced an intense, largely uncontrollable level of energy for a brief period of time, but no euphoria and no motivation to do anything other that sit around playing video games for hours on end (did I mention introversion?).

But with the Provigil, I have a baseline energy level analogous to what I used to only have when genuinely excited about something. Except now I'm enthusiastic and feel the need to go find something to be enthuiastic _about_. It's a sense of euphoria unlike anything else I've ever taken -- it feels entirely natural, except that I know it's because of the drug.

I suspect that even the euphoria may be as much psychological as chemical, I feel like I can finally start to live up to my potential, not transcend the limits of mere humanity (that's what the acid is for). I'm doing a lot of hard work, both physical and social (mental has always been easy, although I think it is a bit easier now as well), and it is still hard work, but I feel like I have a near limitless reserve to draw upon, rather than a shallow well that refills slowly.

All told, Provigil has basically been what I'd heard about coke before I tried it, except without the jitters, addiction, health effects or crash. Sure, it doesn't hit like it, but when looking for a solution rather than a buzz, that's not really a problem.

Exp Year: 2007ExpID: 65895
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Mar 22, 2020Views: 1,432
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