Citation: Creatus. "Infinity Is A Scary Experience: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (20x extract) & Cannabis (exp63597)". Erowid.org. Apr 4, 2020. erowid.org/exp/63597
I heard many people had many intense experiences with salvia, and after reading some experiences I wanted to find out what it was for myself.
My friend G had a lot of salvia extract that he didn't feel like smoking himself because of his negative experiences with it so he invited me and my friend B to his house to smoke it.
Before leaving we smoked several bowls and we were pretty high. I was unhappy with this because I'd never tried salvia before, and I like being sober before experiencing a new drug. It was a long bike ride and it was raining. When we got to Gs house, his grandmother answered the door. She didn't seem pleased to see two wet stoned teens at her door but she called G and let us in anyways.
We went into Gs room. Which is awesome and completely tripped out with posters and lava lamps. We waited for Gs grandma to leave before G pulled out his small saliva tin. I was nervous and a bit worrisome after hearing G talk about his unpleasant experiences so I let B have his trip first. A small amount was stuck to the side of a glass pipe and handed to B who was told to sit on Gs bed clear of sharp objects.
He took the hit and held it in and handed the pipe to G. He looked at us, waiting and blew out the hit a few seconds later. anticipation. Then all of a sudden he went 'woah'. Then he was laughing uncontrollably. He launched backwards onto the bed and began screaming and laughing in hysteria. He rolled around and screamed 'weeee!' me and G were laughing. Then he began to calm down and sat up. We asked him how it was. He attempted to speak but all that came out were fragments of words. We sat for awhile before he was able to talk. 'Its like a roller-coaster ride!'
It was my turn. Though Bs positive experienced had reduced my paranoia. I was still quite nervous, and quite high. I took the hit and held it in for a long time. (I'm good at that) when I exhaled no smoke came out (I got all of it). I puzzled at this when suddenly I stared at my friends in the corner of the room. They were being sucked away.
I stared at my friends in the corner of the room. They were being sucked away.
The room was stretching at an incredibly fast rate, and I saw my friends and the other end of the room get sucked so far away I could no longer see it. I was laughing uncontrollably.
I was then sucked into salvia world. It makes everything I see have such irrational meaning that I think I'm seeing something completely different from what I am. Also there is a huge physical high which is just as irrational.
I fell backward into my own salvia world. Blinded by irrational thought. My own laughter turned into the laughter of a thousand blue-men off in the distance. In the distance just beyond a rolling green landscape. Everything has a Beatles: Yellow Submarine texture. I don't know who I am or what I am. I can't think because of the overflow if irrational information. This landscape appears to be some kind of rotating 3D pop-up book made out of dirt and stone rather then paper. I'm scared for my life. I'm dead. Dying.
I finally come back to my body and realise I'm lying backwards on the bed. I sit up. Dazed. I'm full of an unbearable fear. I had just experienced infinity. Infinity is a scary thing to experience. I couldn't communicate. G and B were watching intently, gawking. B tempted to stimulate me by rotating a small globe in front of my face. I looked at it stupidly and was only able to mutter 'world.' They laughed. Even coming back to reality I felt trapped in the room. Everything seemed fake. Reality didn't seem real at all.
My marijuana high had completely been killed by the salvia trip. Me and B smoked some bowls. The herb calmed me a bit. G sat and went on his own trip. He was experienced, he didn't laugh or scream. When he came back and was able to talk he said 'I hate this stuff. Scary as shit. And its always the same.' He reconsidered 'Theres always a lesson I learn in these trips. The one in this one was...' He mumbled. 'Fuck. I forgot it!' Still feeling trapped I went to the bathroom to piss and stared at my reflection in the mirror. Even I seemed fake. A little while later we went our own ways home. The 'Nothing is Real' feeling stayed with me for the rest of the night.
I've done salvia several times after this, but it was never potent enough to reach the intensity of this trip. I'd try it again if I got the chance, but not because its fun, just because its powerful and maybe there are some 'lessons' I can learn if I could remember it. As for what I learned off this one: What we experience in reality is a very small fraction of what there really is. There is an overflow of information that our brain filters out for our own survival.
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