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Massive Panic Attack
MDMA (Ecstasy) & Cannabis
by Fixxxer
Citation:   Fixxxer. "Massive Panic Attack: An Experience with MDMA (Ecstasy) & Cannabis (exp63458)". Erowid.org. Jul 10, 2009. erowid.org/exp/63458

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
1 tablet oral MDMA
  T+ 2:00 1 tablet oral MDMA
  T+ 4:00 1 tablet oral MDMA
  T+ 0:00     Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT: 275 lb


the last time I used x was about two years ago. I had done it about 9 times before, and had become well acquainted with the effects. I was used to the fact that the next couple of days I would feel down, and had expected it.

However, what I did not expect was the onset of a massive panic attack. About 4 hours into the trip (I had taken 3 pills, 2 hours apart) I felt my heart beating very fast. I know that is normal, but I was very aware that my pulse was high. I could hear my heart pounding in my head, and felt dizzy. Suddenly I felt as though I was dying. No matter what I did, I could not shake that feeling. I was terrified, and what was worse was that it was for no reason at all. I couldn't rationalize what I was feeling. Finally I crashed, and I woke up a couple hours later feeling much better.

A few days later, I was driving into work. I felt a strange tickle in my chest, and noticed my heart was pounding. I pulled over and my head started to spin. I broke out in a cold sweat, and I felt dread take over my mind. I was sure I was going to die. I felt pains in my chest, and my arms went numb. 5mins later I started to feel better. I called my doctor, who wanted to do an EKG. He did the EKG, as well as several other blood tests. They all came back normal. I was perfectly healthy, physically anyway.

Within a week of the appointment I had another panic attack. This one was far worse than the fist two, and persisted for over an hour. I went back to the doctors. They did more tests, and they came back negative again. My heart was healthy. My mind was not. I was diagnosed with panic disorder. I came clean about my habits with my doctor, and asked if they could have influenced this. He was certain that they had. He told me that I was dealing with the consequences of a bad choice. I have been clean since then. The panic attacks have become less frequent, and much less intense. I still experience flashbacks though. I am not sure if this is soley the result of x, or just that it agrivated a pre-existing disposition to panic disorder. I can say that the x played a major role in what happened to me though. I am getting better, but the first year was hell. If I knew there was only a one in a billion chance of feeling that way again if I did more x, I still wouldn't. It was that bad.

[Reported dose: 3 double stacked pills (yellow lightbulbs)]

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 63458
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jul 10, 2009Views: 9,484
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MDMA (3), Cannabis (1) : Combinations (3), Post Trip Problems (8), Health Problems (27), Unknown Context (20)

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