Citation: there and then. "The Soul Chain Train: An Experience with Heroin (exp55839)". Erowid.org. Nov 8, 2018. erowid.org/exp/55839
||(powder / crystals)
If we hadn't played with something we must refrain...
Well, most of the people get captured in the same old way, first the cigarettes and alcohol unlock weed and a few stops later they land at saint browns station - so soft and candy.
I am fool enough to hop on this train and ride it to the end, where believe me no one comes off un-injured.
Well it started out with teenage dourness, and the drug supported me on this - like 'brown - it ain't so good like cocaine or mushrooms, maybe but not forcefully, I'll try it again. I will never have problems with it'. But months later another boy showed up with some 'stoner powder', up the nose it went for a glow of heaven. With the 5th time I loved it, but I had control - once a month max. And it worked so well,...
Well it took 2 years for the brown to capture me, mostly because of weed overindulgence a functional social network (stoners) and some occasional psychedelic superego preventing me from spinning out of control.
Then, weed got out of fashion - at least for me - cause it started to wear me down and some problems on the love sector triggered a drug mania which nags until this day on my libido, thought patterns and mood. Brown with white, massive brown alone, with benzos combined, with psychedilics combined, substitution medicine with benzos combined the list is long, the constant is opiates.
At least for now I have avoided the needle route, physical withdrawal signs and scam, successfully. My longest binge was 7 days in a row, resulting in 1 week of horrid depression, not moving out of bed for days. Wait a week to get tolerance down and on the streets I am...
If I don't stop now, I know what's gonna happen then.
I try my hardest to pull me out of this situation with sports, academic education and the sex-thingy... But I'll always think on st. Browns.
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