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My Successful Love Affair With Amphetamines
Amphetamines
by amatuer tweaker
Citation:   amatuer tweaker. "My Successful Love Affair With Amphetamines: An Experience with Amphetamines (exp55403)". Erowid.org. Jan 18, 2018. erowid.org/exp/55403

 
DOSE:
  repeated   Amphetamines (daily)

BODY WEIGHT: 150 lb


Life is so much more beautiful with speed. I hate the very existence of anything I wouldn't like on it. I'm such a loving person on it. If I don't like you, you must be an asshole.

I'm on day 3 of my 'binge'. Don't care. I know. I'm dependent. I don't mind. I just live life everyday as my zing tells me to. So what if I will never feel normal again without speed. I can't remember the last time I had a REAL feeling of happiness.

They are almost extinct. All forms of happiness now come in a pill or bong. Or pipe. Or w/e. Until you know what it feels like for me to go a day without speed, you don't know anything about misery!

People say drugs make you go insane. That's not always true. Sometimes, we do them not to go insane. I see shadows. Everywhere. They're interacting with me. Moving. In front of me. I wonder if they're trying to antagonize me.

They aren't beautiful like everything else in this speed vision of mine, they must be destroyed. It's weird. I wake up and I serve no purpose. Nothing. I feel miserable, and feel despair, and I can't feel anymore. I'm numb. I no longer feel human.

Until I take some speed. It turns me into a heartful, ambitious, energetic, sweet gentleman. And I can look good after 3 days of no sleep. Beat that.

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 55403
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jan 18, 2018Views: 988
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