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I Couldnt Even Buy It Yet
Alcohol
Citation:   This_Sucks. "I Couldnt Even Buy It Yet: An Experience with Alcohol (exp54989)". Erowid.org. Sep 24, 2008. erowid.org/exp/54989

 
DOSE:
  repeated oral Alcohol (daily)
BODY WEIGHT: 190 lb
When I was 17 me and my friends started drinking regularly. I donít mean just drinking, we got smashed everynight of the week. This lasted for about a month until most of my friends started getting tired of it everynight so they cut back to once or twice a week, but that wasnít the case for me and my friend Joe.

We both loved drinking and when we didnít, we'd sit there and just keep saying back-and-forth, 'why didnít we drink tonite'. Just made the night horrible, bUt this was a rare occasion since we loved it so much and couldnít get enough. We'd binge (like drink from wake to sleep) for like 3-4 days, then stick to only at nights for a week, then binge again. This wasnít a problem during summer since parents are at work and we didnít have to get up early, but then school started and we couldnít stop.

First 3 days of school we didn't drink, but it was so unnerving to not be drunk at night that I couldnt even sleep without sneaking downstairs for a rum and coke, or atleast a few shots. If I didn't have a drink I'd either not sleep at all or wake up every ten minutes in a cold sweat.

I imagine it was the same for him cause he called me after the third day back to school and said something like, 'hows about we go pick up a 12 pack for old times sake?' (old times sake, like it had been years since our last drink) I picked him up and it turned into two 12packs. The next day we realized it wasnt that bad going to school hungover so we did the same thing the next night, and the next night, etc.

It started getting real bad though when Iíd drive him to school (he went to a different school) and we'd kill a 12 on the way. That's when the parents started taking notice. I got grounded for a month for getting caught drunk in school. Didnít really make a difference, instead of going to drink with Joe, Iíd sit at home and watch tv and drink myself. When I got out, it started right back up.

My dad kicked me out two days after my 18th birthday. I lived with Joe for about 7 weeks, then he turned 18 and his dad kicked us out. Living on our own we didnít even go home at night, we'd just drink and drink and drink, until we passed out. Then the cops would find us sleeping on someone's lawn or in the park and we'd sit in jail for the night. We were arrested for underage drinking/drunk in public four times in the same month, not to mention a number of other times.

I'm only 18 and I've been attending court ordered AA meetings everyday for the past month and a half and take all sorts of meds to help with the cravings. (same for joe) My parents are letting us live at their house now that we're in the program, Joe's dad said he'd kill him if he ever came around so he wonít even ask to return home. We still have a drink every now an then, but only like one or two drinks, havenít gotten smashed since the meetings started. It's been 2 weeks since my last drink and i'm pretty proud. I haven't lasted that long in a while. Still canít find a job though because of all the drinking arrests and because my schedule is limited due to the meetings, they wonít say thatís the reason but I know it is.

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 54989
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Sep 24, 2008Views: 10,875
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Alcohol (61) : Retrospective / Summary (11), Relationships (44), Addiction & Habituation (10), Not Applicable (38)

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