Pulsating Walls, Complete Loss of Self
Salvia divinorum (10X Extract)
by Will
Citation:   Will. "Pulsating Walls, Complete Loss of Self: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (10X Extract) (exp53727)". Erowid.org. Mar 1, 2021. erowid.org/exp/53727

 
DOSE:
1 hit smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 10x)

BODY WEIGHT: 150 lb


My second salvia trip was very similar to the first, but a little more interesting, so I will relate that one.

I was with four friends in a room, smoking 10x extract out of a medium bong. Finally the bong came to me. I didn't know how much to take, so I took a monster hit just to be on the safe side.

Within 20-30 seconds, I could feel the creeping effect. My skin started to tingle around my back and neck, and I felt that my body temperature was skyrocketing. I started to sweat, this brought itchiness with it.

I didn't have much time to focus on my physical discomfort, though. The heat of salvia was creeping up into my brain. Two things happened at the same time:

1. My awareness, my three-dimensional awareness of the room, suddenly distorted itself. I was acutely aware of reality being stretched from either end, like a piece of silly putty. I lost a three-dimensional sense of the world, and perceived that the room was getting compressed into a portal. As I looked at the room, physical boundaries seemed to pulsate back and forth.

2. I lost my sense of self. I had the sensation that my face was melting. But rather than be frightened by this, it represented my initiation into a group collective of melt-people, meaning those who were 'melty' in my estimation. I felt that not only was I now a member of the tribe, but I had become their advocate, and my body was their host. My previous worldy identity of 'Will' no longer existed, but this didn't bother me, I was now speaker for the melt-collective. This made me a little nervous as I had such high regard for the collective and didn't want to let them down in my new capacity.

At this point I curled up into a fetal position on the bed and impulsively rubbed my face. All the while the melt-collective was providing me with comfort and belonging, I was wracked with brief but total terror at my breakdown of reality.

At this point my non-tripping friend made fun of me to the group. I perceived this in the back of my awareness, and told him, 'Obviously you're not a melt-person.' I felt sorry for him.

I came down pretty linearly from the trip, and once reality reconstituted itself, I got up and walked around to experiment with the residual body feelings.

All in all, I don't think I'll be doing salvia again. The complete loss of self was interesting, but not explicitly pleasant. My two trips were so similar that I feel there's nothing more to get from salvia. There was no shroom-like insight, it just fucked with my awareness.

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 53727
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Mar 1, 2021Views: 140
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