DOSE:

repeated

Methamphetamine

BODY WEIGHT:

225 lb

I have read many experiences online about meth and the horrible reality it brings to the user's life. I too was a user on and off for several years. As a teen it was just to party: X,shrooms,acid,cannabis,coke,pills, pretty much whatever was available. I loved to party and get a good buzz, didn't really matter to me what I was using as long as I was feeling good...but when I started using meth...I didn't realize that it was going to change my life.

I had dabbled in a little bit of everything, and as a young military wife...I continued to party,mostly because I was bored...my husband was deployed halfway around the world..I was far away from family and friends..not to mention that drugs were readily available around a military base. I also have to point out that the most drugs I have ever seen in my life have been on an Army base...no doubt about it.

We had started a family, and now I had five small children to take care of on my own. A friend had suggested that I try a little speed to give me the extra boost of energy that I needed to cope with my strained life. I was also going to college and working at the same time, and in my tweeked out mind I thought that I had everything under control. The grades were good, the job was good, the family life was going ok ( I was a girl scout leader, a boy scout leader,and a PTA mom) but the need for meth was consuming me. Eventually I lost the good job, dropped out of college, watched my husband try to kill himself, and became a shell of my former self. My kids didn't know what was going on behind the scenes...I somehow managed to hide alot, but the guilt was killing me. I also had bills and disconnection notices piling up because I was spending bill money on my habit. My husband (who was also using meth) and I decided that the only way out of our tweeked out world, was to pick up and moved. Thats exactly what we did. We packed what would fit in our car, and moved from NY to Texas, leaving everything else behind. I left a house full of furniture, bills unpaid, a beautiful house...and just flat out moved. We told the kids we were moving to be closer to their grandparents...but in reality we were running from our worst enemy. We have since started over....clean and sober and have been here for two years. Now that I look back on all the crap that we went through...I wish I had never touched meth. I still lay in bed at night and think about the rush, the taste, the smell, and crave meth...but two years sober, and my life back will never let me go there again. I hope this experience can help someone else, or at least show that their is hope.

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 51612
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Nov 9, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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