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Pathetic Drunk
Alcohol
Citation:   Sonny. "Pathetic Drunk: An Experience with Alcohol (exp49291)". Erowid.org. Nov 24, 2017. erowid.org/exp/49291

 
DOSE:
  oral Alcohol - Hard (daily)
BODY WEIGHT: 160 lb
Well my experiences with mind altering substances started at age 14. I first smoked pot and continued to do it on a regular basis until I was 18. However when I was 16...a friend of mine hung himself in his garage...at that point I also began drinking.

At 18 I Quit smoking pot b/c I was arrested and began being tested for drugs. But as my weed smoking ceased...my drinking increased by 300%. I started drinking almost everyday. Many of my friends became annoyed by my agitated behavior and quit pursuing my friendship. Also, my girlfriend left me for her Ex- Boyfriend. This loss of companionship has thrown me into a almost constant state of intoxication.

Whenever I finish my shift at work, I go back to my apartment and start drinking....usually by myself. 75% of my drinking occurs with me, myself, and I. I drink alone all the time. I just sit in my apartment and get wasted. I used to drink beer, but these days it's only 80-100 proof liquor...occasionally some 151. I feel really depressed and I'm no closer to happiness. I have to admit..today I've drank about half a liter of Gin, I'm somewhat drunk...I'm sure by the days end I'll finish it off. I just want to worn that Alcohol may seem like something to comfort a person in a time of pain...but that comfort never lasts. The pain will always beat the alcohol. Get real help, don't rely on booze to solve your problems....otherwise a person might end up like me. Booze has ruined me...I only pray that God will spare me from the anguish I feel right now....

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 49291
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Nov 24, 2017Views: 2,868
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