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More Than I Had Hoped
by Earth_angel
Citation:   Earth_angel. "More Than I Had Hoped: An Experience with BZP & TFMPP (exp48678)". Dec 6, 2006.

T+ 0:00
1 tablet oral Piperazines - BZP (pill / tablet)
  T+ 1:00 1 repeated smoked Cannabis (plant material)


The other night, I decided to try out a “Red Heart” pill that I ordered from New Zealand. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but the pamphlet said a safe alternative to extacy, so I went in to it hoping that I would have a great experience.

Well, I certainly didn’t expect as much as I received! My Mum and I took 1 pill each at 7.45 pm. The pills were slow to act; about 1 hour, as apposed to about half an hour for an E. The Red Heart also came on less dramatically. I didn’t get a rush of the drug entering my system. Rather, it was a slow gradual increase in the intensity.

About an hour after we took the pill, Mum suggested we have a few cones. It was Mum’s gear and I hadn’t tried it before. So, I had a couple of cones and passed the bong on to Mum. I stepped back and looked at her and said “wow, that’s good pot Mum……. It really good pot!” That’s when Mum said “are you sure it’s the pot, and not the pill?” I realised at that point that these Red Hearts were really awesome!

The sensations that I felt were similar to extacy, but a bit different. The Red Hearts seemed to connect me with my intuition and subconscious on an unbelievable level. Every moment was filled with life-changing realisations about life, and everything in between that you could ever imagine. I understood things so deeply, it was amazing!

Time stood still. These Red Hearts had me pumping, I had limitless energy, motivation and interest in everything. I felt like I didn’t have a single need for anything. Being thirsty wasn’t unpleasant; my 3 inch heels didn’t hurt my feet, even after wearing them for hours and hours.

I felt loving and warm and comfortable within my self, my surroundings and in other people. I had to stop and remind myself that it wasn’t extacy that I took, it was a red heart. As with extacy, I had an intensification of my senses, and WOW could I dance!!!

My internal dialogue was (in hindsight) hilarious! If anyone knew what I was thinking, they would have thought I was so up myself. I had an intense feeling of purpose and ability. I became intensely interested in being the best person I could be; intelligent, attractive and an all round nice person. I realised that the character of Reece Witherspoon in Legally Blonde 1 and 2 was my idol. I wanted to be just like Eve!

I had a dramatically heightened sense of appreciation in every sense of the word. In fact, a lot of things that I said started with “I have a heightened sense of understanding other people’s needs” or “I have a heightened sense of acceptance” or “I have a heightened sense of self-awareness”. Every perception was heightened, and I couldn’t stop saying it!!!!

And the best thing is that Mum was in the same frame of mind, and everything I said to her was so interesting, so we never had a dull moment. The worst thing was that I had to get up early because it was my son’s 6th birthday the next morning, and I had to do the present thing and put on a little party. At 3.30 am, I was still pumped, and wanting to party. But, I just couldn’t sleep (even when I thought I was sleeping, my thoughts didn’t stop, so I don’t know if I actually slept at all, or if it was a case of having intense thoughts during my sleep), I was majorly bummed out energy wise all day.

On the subject of negative side effects: I had way less adverse reactions from the Red Hearts, except I still clenched my jaw terribly (although grinding wasn’t a problem). I didn’t have the emotional low that I have had after taking an E, and I’m sure if I was able to sleep the next day, that I would have bounced back faster.

Overall, I think that Red Hearts are definitely worth the money. For me, they are a suitable substitute for extacy. They are not exactly the same as extacy, but I feel that if my body copes better with the side effects of the red hearts, that the extra bit of edge you get from extacy isn’t worth it, if I suffer so much more with the comedown.

By the way, I’ve already ordered more……. NEW YEARS EVE……… here I come!!!!!

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 48678
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Dec 6, 2006Views: 16,435
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