I Love and Hate It
by Bosag
Citation:   Bosag. "I Love and Hate It: An Experience with Codeine (exp45607)". Erowid.org. Oct 26, 2020. erowid.org/exp/45607

  repeated oral Codeine  
    repeated oral Oxycodone  
    oral Pharms - Buprenorphine (daily)


I have over the past 6 or so months been playing with codeine, it first started as a bit of fun everyweek or so using small amounts then I started using higher amounts around 300mgs to get the total opiate high this was about every 4 to 5 days. This seemed harmless because Codeine was the best feeling I ever felt so I stopped using other drugs I hardly ever drank and I never got a come down from it, so it felt like the holly grail of getting high. 'Once a week cant be that bad' I told my self, I even hallucinated on Codeine a couple of times I dont know what thats about but it happened.

My friend who I lived with conveniently broke his arm and was given 100 tablets of Oxycodone I ended up taking half of those he hated me asking for them because he knew what was happening to me, they were the best thing I ever had at one stage I took 11 5mg tablets when I was drunk I looked like a junky I couldnt even lift my head of speak properly I felt so good though my freinds where stressing saying: 'oh my god wheve never seen you like this before'.

It felt good having opiates as my own range of drugs because non of my friends used so I created an identity through it. The Oxycodne blew the adicction through the roof because they are so addictive them selves when we ran out of them I went back to Codeine but this time I found out about the splitting of Nurofen plus meaning I didnt have to extract it, I used to buy 48 packs cut the whole lot up and take it all it was the best feeling at that dose my whole body would go warm a lovely tingle would sit in my stomach and I was so nice to everyone I had alot of empathy. This went on for a wile untill 48 wasnt enough so I started using 60 tablets at 768mgs this was quite a punch in the face of a hit so I didnt let this amount go on to long.

I went to rehab and got off it then I bacame really depressed and used a week or two after rehab this made me happy again, but I knew I couldnt go like this I went on the Subutex (Buprenorphine) program normally for Heroin addicts. This helped but I got heavy headaches and couldnt have sex so I stopped that after two weeks, now I'm using shear will power to not use I believe that it is no answer but for now I wish to use on the odd occasion because life is so flat without that opiate love.

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 45607
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Oct 26, 2020Views: 889
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Codeine (14), Oxycodone (176) : Addiction & Habituation (10), Medical Use (47), Not Applicable (38)

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