Citation: UnderTheTable. "Complete Utter Desperation to Escape: An Experience with Caffeine (exp39531)". Erowid.org. Jan 13, 2005. erowid.org/exp/39531
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A month ago, every single day for me was spent on over 200 mg of caffiene. The higher the dose at one time, the worse the expirence. After reaching the fatality piont my expirence became horrible. Normally while on it, I am very exuberant and talkative and shakey whereas my sober personality is subdued, quiet and graceful. The last time I took it, until tonight, I had taken 1000mg or 5 pills of [deleted] brand caffiene. The only thing I felt was a complete utter desperation to escape, though of what I'm still not sure. I felt icky. My intestinal tract felt like it was a worm twisting into odd shapes and about to burst out of my stomach like it was paper thin. I kept fleeing to the bathroom at my school, and I would hide in the stalls. I kept imagining my insides melting. I couldn't stand the idea of talking to any of my friends because I was convinced that if they noticed they would eat me. (Not in the good way)
Oddly enough I never reached that piont where you believe you going to die. Afterwards I quit for the time being. I decided I was going to lower my tolerance to 0. My best advise to anyone intending to go over 600 mg is make sure you not alone. Its comforting to know that if you really do have a heart attack or some other heart complication, that someone will be around to get you to the hospital. Also, when I reach that piont where I think I'm going to die, I always keep an eye out fo shooting pains up and down my left arm.
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